mccreamy x reader fanfiction

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i took my hair down so people wouldn't see the hickeys. i also carried my phone since i didn't know where i was going and i didn't want to get lost.

after about 5 minutes of walking around, i heard footsteps running up behind me.

"hey," jay said. i ignored him. "hellooooo?" he said again.

"what." i respond.

"i'm sorry that they're being absolute dickheads."

"why are you the one apologizing?" i ask

"because i feel like i'm the only one who felt bad about it."

"oh, so now you pity me?" i start getting annoyed.

"no, i just-"

i cut him off. "did it mean anything to you?"

we both stopped walking.

"i don't remember. i was drunk, too..." he says, feeling sorry.

we were stopped in front of the cherry blossom tree. there was a moment of silence.

"i just don't get how stuff like this is normal to you. that was my first time even kissing a guy. since you're hot, you probably have girls all over you and you hook up with girls way better than me, and-"

"wait, you think i'm hot?" he laughs.

"wait no no no, that's not what i meant."

"so you think i'm ugly? how flattering." he says with a charming smile.

"no!"

"then what am i?" he says, locking eyes with mine.

"i mean, i talk to you more than i talk to anybody else in that house. i know you the best. you know me the best. i could basically tell you anything because i trust you the most. i just hope that my first kiss wasn't something where you possibly tried to take advantage of me or where i was drunk, stoned, or whatever because i wanted it to be something special-"

he cut me off by locking our lips together, pulling me in by holding my waist. at first, i was a bit overwhelmed but i gave into it. after what seemed like forever, we pulled apart.

i was in a state of shock. "what was that for?"

"there. that can be considered your perfect first kiss. ignore whatever happened last night. none of us remember. for all we know, maybe it wasn't even me." he smiles. i blush.

we walk back.

"have you ever experienced love?" i ask out of the blue.

"yeah, why?"

"what does it feel like?"

"it depends really. you feel nervous and different only around that person. you question everything that you do around them. it's a weird thing." he looks down at me. god, was his accent cute...

"can i be honest?" i ask nervously. he nods. "i've never really felt love, but i feel like i feel it around you." i'm usually very open around him so it wasn't too hard for me to just say that.

he stops. oh no. did i say it too soon? what if i just ruined everyth- "i feel it around you too. i've felt it since our first skype call. you just seemed different from the rest, and i liked it. a lot."

i cover my face, trying to stop myself from squealing and to hide my face.

i gather myself together, and act mature. "so then, like, what are we?"

"you can choose." he continues walking.

we're almost at the house. i can see the boys looking outside the window at us. i give them the finger.

"i want to be something with you, like we're dating, but they'd constantly shit on us about it."

there was a moment of silence.

"they don't have to know." my heart fluttered as we shared eye contact.

"deal. it's settled." i say with a smile. i was tempted to kiss him right then and there, and wrap his arm around my waist. but i couldn't with those lunatics gawking at us.

we walked into the house, smiling at each other, ignoring the dumb comments that followed.