mccreamy x reader fanfiction

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jay's pov

it has been 3 weeks since that day. the girl of my dreams, the one i've been in love with for 2 years, we've been dating and luckily nobody knows about it.

there were definitely times where i'd get jealous, and the guys would make comments about it but i just say that i don't like her like that.

i feel bad whenever i say i don't, because in reality, i absolutely love y/n to the moon and back.

i feel like this vacation has been speeding by so fast... i'm getting nervous for the PAX event coming up.

i had already shown my face. i'm comfortable with how i look. i'm reminded everyday how 'sexy' and 'good looking' i am by y/n.

what did i do to deserve her?

i love my fans for sure. they are chill as hell. but sometimes, a few of my female fans try to flirt. i just hope they find me repulsive at the event, and y/n won't notice it.

i believe this is her first PAX event. in the past few weeks, she gained 300,000 subscribers to her youtube channel. she's so close to hitting 10 million. i'm so proud of her

but since she likes to keep a private life, she'll be wearing a mask at the event. but since some of her fans aren't respectful of her privacy, and will go as far as stalk her to reveal her identity, i just hope people won't find out at PAX.

y/n's pov

"let's go somewhere tonight!" matt groaned.

"like dinner or what?" i respond.

"well we can't go anywhere because this cunt chooses not to reveal her face." mason complains, pointing at me.

"shut the fuck up, dick head. how about you guys just go without me? i can handle being by myself for a few hours. besides, i need it." i kick mason off the couch.

i really did need the extra time though. i just want a few hours away from these dorks to just take a bath, relax, and not hear the word 'cunt' every 2 seconds.

"are you sure you'll be okay by yourself?" jay cocks his eyebrows.

"yessssssss," i groan. "i might as well get used to it since soon enough, i'm going to be living by myself." i trail off, imagining myself living with jay... everybody in the room lived with everybody. i'd be the only one by myself.

"sounds like a plan. we'll leave her behind and have a guys-only night." ezra jumps up from the couch.

"since it's already 6pm, you guys should leave soon." i suggest.

everybody agrees. they all get up, slip on a pair of shoes, grab their wallets, and leave. they took masons car since he volunteered to drive.

jay was the last one out.

"you sure you'll be okay?" he asks.

i nod and roll my eyes.

"okay, just call me if something happens."

i smile and pull him in for a kiss.

"have a fun night!" i send him off.

they left, and i'm now alone.

i go upstairs and draw a hot bubble bath. i unclothe myself, cover the window curtains, and slip into the warm water.

i connected my phone to the bluetooth speakers installed in the bathroom and play billie eilish.

i'm scared
i've never fallen from quite
this high,
falling into your ocean eyes

authors note:
this song is called ocean eyes. it talks about the different emotions when one falls in love. 🥰

it's true. i was scared about falling in love. i've never experienced it. what if he just ends up breaking my heart? i would never know how to deal with the heartbreak, since i have 0 experience. what if he was just using me...

*bang*

what the hell was that? sounded like something brok-

*shatter*

that was definitely glass hitting the tiles. is somebody breaking in?