Always.

Six

"Now I'm gonna get some answers out of you."

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"What do you know?" This guy was seriously starting to piss me off. He knew something, but just wouldn't talk.

"About what?"

"The freaking airplane crash! You were less than a mile from it! You must've seen something!"

"I don't remember anything about an airplane..." God, this guy was an asshole.

I left the room. We had been in there for an hour, and I was getting frustrated. I went to go get some coffee.

"Beckett? You okay?" Ryan followed, he was worried.

"Yeah... I just..."

"It's okay. Why don't you go home? We will call you if we get anything."

"I'm not going home until Castle is found. I just to calm down right now."

"Beckett, you're not calming down. You've started shaking since I came in here. Maybe coffee isn't the thing you should be drinking right now."

"Ryan, you don't understand what I'm going through right now. Why don't you come back and give me advice after Jenny's gone missing!"

"Beckett!"

"Sorry Ryan. I'm, it's, it's just that..." I was at a loss of words. Why would I snap at Ryan like that? He and Espo are like Castle's best friends. They want him back too. Maybe it's the fact that...

"It's okay Beckett. I would say I understand..."

I started crying. Not just a normal cry, which just that was rare for me, but wailing. I was pouring out tears. I couldn't control it anymore. I just wanted Castle back!

"It's okay Beckett, it's okay." Ryan came over and gave me a reassuring hug, but nothing at this point could help. Except, Castle, of course. I started crying more.

"Oh, Ryan! Everybody's being so nice to me, and I'm just acting like a bitch!"

Ryan stepped back, and looked at me for a minute. "Beckett, is there anything else? Is something other than... this... going on?"

He saw it. He found it in my face, my eyes. He knows. No use in hiding it.

"I need to tell him. Castle needs to be there."

"Tell him what? Be there?" Ryan was acting confused, but I could tell he already had it figured out.

"I'm pregnant."