The Singer's Girl

Chapter 5

TAYLOR'S POV

"Are you sure though?" I asked Caroline.

"Taylor, I'm sure." She said.

"Well if you don't want to stay just call me and I'll pick you up, even if it's the middle of the night, I don't mind." I told her. I was a little worried about her spending the night at her new friend's house. Especially after her anxiety episode last night.

"Well are we gonna go?" She asked and I looked at her.

"Are you going to give me a hug first?" I asked moving in closer to her until I felt her arms wrap around me, hugging me like she meant it. I bent down a gave her a kiss before pulling away and grabbing my keys off of the counter.

Caroline gave me directions to Kelsey's house and I navigated the streets of Nashville in my car. Inside I was still nervous for her, she hadn't had a night away from me since she stayed with my parents about 2 weeks after her dad died. And that didn't turn out well.

"It's this one." She said as she pointed to a house and I quickly pulled into it's driveway.

"Call me if you need anything, I'll come no matter what, okay?" I asked before she could get out of the car.

"I'm not going to need anything." She laughed but after seeing the serious expression on my face she nodded.

"Well bye, I love you." Caroline said before opening the car door.

"Love you so much Caroline, have a good time." I said before she smiled at me and shut the car door, leaving me alone and feeling helpless. I waited until the door was opened for my daughter before I pulled out of the driveway and made my way back home.

What if she had a panic attack tonight? I wouldn't be there to help her. What if she had a bad dream? I wouldn't be there to help her. The only people she would have was a bunch of high school girls that she had just made friends with a couple days ago. And high school girls weren't always the nicest.

When I got home it didn't know what to do with myself, all I could think about was Caroline.

CAROLINE'S POV

At around midnight everyone at Kelsey's decided that we wanted to watch a movie. I was having a great time, and it wasn't just Kelsey and Grace there. There were a few other girls from our grade too, who were all equally nice to me. When we had gotten to Kelsey's house we were outside, but when it got dark we decided to go in and talk. We had been in her basement talking, telling stories, and laughing for hours.

The whole time I was so thankful that I had been invited. Now Kelsey was putting a movie in and I was sitting beside Grace on the couch. Although I had talked to everyone throughout the night, I was closest to Grace.

When the movie started I couldn't help but think of Taylor. We always watched movies together, and honestly I was kind of missing her right now. But not so much that I needed her to come pick me up.

One by one during the movie people started moving from the couch to the floor and falling asleep. Grace was the last one to do so, which left me alone on the couch watching the end of the movie while everyone else was asleep.

When it ended I got up and shut off Kelsey's TV before going back to lay down on the now empty couch. But it was difficult to fall asleep. And when it's difficult to fall asleep I start thinking. And when I start thinking my mind starts racing. And when my mind starts racing I fall into an anxiety attack.

But I did everything in my power to not have one. Every time I caught myself overthinking I would try to make it stop. I thought of Taylor, which lead me to adoption, which lead me to foster care, which lead me to my dad, which lead me to my mom, which lead me to dead people. And that's where I remember stopping myself from letting my mind think freely like that. I was on the verge of a panic attack when I asked myself if my parents were here with me now or if they only payed attention to my life once and a while.