Today's the day! Let's me just say what I need to say.
Today's the day I meet death cause I'm tired of all the stress I ain't got nothin left my minds a mess.
I'm gonna take my life I don't want to survive I don't care about being alive.
I'm ab to take a whole bottle of pills I don't want to feel.
People just be switching lanes giving me so much pain they always be changing and that's what makes life so lame people don't stay the same.
Maybe taking my own life would be alright maybe I'm right maybe I'm wrong that's why I keep writing these songs I feel so alone.
I'll be okay in my black casket I don't care who likes it I don't give a shit.
I'm ready to be in my coffin I don't care if suicide is a sin Bc I'm never going to win sorry to all my friends.
I want red and black balloons at my memorial cause that's my favorite so tell my click.
I hope my family is okay ,but I can't live another day I think death is the perfect way.
I have seen some crazy shit I didn't want to witness.
I'm going to get buried in a white tee, & some fancy jeans.
Make sure no fakes show up to my funeral and don't let no one say anything about my humor.
I loved you all ,but I just couldn't handle the pain from the fall.
I feel like the world wouldn't miss me cause no ones listening.
I wish I could wish for the things I miss.
I don't want cremated and my people get my ashes I want to be in a casket cause that's classic.
Make sure you talk about how I looked in my coffin really often.
My heart was pure ,but my depression didn't have a cure.
I feel so bad for the ones I'll leave behind take that as a hint no one even seen a sign don't try to rewind my life isn't so fine.
Everyone started going blind when I lost my grind.
I'm carrying so much weight I'm a sinner not a saint I can't hold on any longer I can't wait.
I just took the pills omg I'm starting to faint it's to late.
I wished life was meant for me I don't want to be on this earth it just ain't for me I ain't who I should be.
I want my cover photo to be me in my cap and gawn and don't say you love me now cause I can't hear a sound.
I'm about to take my last breath Boom💥 I just meet death that was a success.
I thought I blew my brains out that was such a doubt.
Now all I see is black I'm having a heart attack.
Now I'm in the hospital they are trying to keep me alive ,but I don't have the fight.
I got tubes in my throat and I feel like I'm just on a boat floating.
They got I'vs in my arm they don't know this ,but I'm not very strong I just want to be left alone.
I got my parents all around me I really can barley see I just want to be free.
I got different doctors coming in my room and all they do is assume.
I got different medicines going in my skin I just wished I had a friend.
I got headaches so bad I am just pissed I'm mad.
Took 40 pills that was on the real I made that drug dealer the best deal and lost my self trying to deal with that steal.
I thought I was dead ,but I was wrong I just want to be home my nights been long.
I am now in a coma at least I got my diploma.
I did something good in my life time I didn't just commit crimes who ever said that just lied.
Got my brother and my mother by my bedside with tears in there eyes asking me why? Why did I try suicide?
I want the song it's not easy being me played I don't care what no one else says.
I want the song simple man on the play list tell my parents that's my wish.
Got my maw and paw all worried and crying I can't believe I did this why couldn't I tell what was wrong and stop lying?
Now everyone seems to care ,but they didn't see that this was my worst nightmare now everyone's scared.
I'm going to a mental institution they are going to try and find me a solution.
My depression is down right evil that fact has been proven I can't win for losing.
I'm back home now doing so well don't want to be behind anymore institution cells that was a big fail I couldn't even receive mail it was like jail.
I'm ready to straighten up cause now and days I give a fuck yelp I got blessed with good luck.
That's how I'm alive and wealthy that suicide attempt wasn't so healthy.
I'm doing better then ever.
Got out the nut house now I'm saucing I don't take no loses.
❣️KATLYN❣️
