Our lives

F o u r t e e n

~ Clarence ~

"Jason?"

His face was now obvious and I raced down to meet him as Katie grabs the microphone to not make the issue, public.

I recall his text "Hey Babe, sorry but my father has work in Japan so I'm going over for a trip there for a week or two okay? Luv ya, Bye".

Japan. Does this look like Japan to you Jason????

What did I ever do wrong? Was I not good enough? Why did you date me in the first place or am I a pawn? You're a playboy aren't you? Why did I fall with a playboy and even worse why did I fall in love with you?

I felt a salty taste in my mouth and realized that by now I'm crying as the guy I love faces me.

Falling in love is crazy. One minute you're sane the next minute you're not. I can't believe I fell into this trap, I'm such an idiot--

Wait. He's the idiot. He's the jerk. I know I should have seen it coming but he played with my feelings!!

I was about to speak when Katie restrained me.

"Clarence don't." She said and I slowly lowered my fist.

"Why. Why not?" Are you on his side Katie? Are you on his side because he is your stupid step brother?"

"No Clari, no. Because he's simply not worth it" she whispered and I realized that he really wasn't worth it

"I loved him Kat. I loved him" the croak in my voice was coming out. I have never been this sad since I was by myself as a child.

Tears started rolling down my face as the boys appeared. "Clari? You okay?" they asked and I attempted to reply but my mouth stopped me from doing so.

I saw the anger in Tristram's eyes.

"I will kill him"

"Say it, sat that you were right. Say that you told me so. Say that it was all my fault for falling for me." And I started to collapse before Tristram's embrace caught me. I am a mess.

He mumbled something as he rested his head on mine. It was all too soon! So many things are flying through my head every second.

We stayed like that for a moment before Matt spoke up.

"We better get her home, come on Clari."

"No" Katie butted in, "I mean, you guys are.. guys. What Clarence needs is some girl time, trust me."

She then checked her phone as he headed towards the car.

"He's not worth it Clari, forget it."

"I just thought he was different you know, not like other guys."

"Yea, that's what love does to you. Tricks you... blinds you"

I looked down at my hands as Adam pulled up in his car.

He said something but I was too deep in thought to hear.

The trip went smoothly and there was no talk until Adam spoke up.

"You know Clarence, I haven't known you that long but you can still turn to me for uh, teenage problems you have."

"Thanks Adam" I smiled a bit. Adam was nice and comforting, kind of like Tristram, kind of like Jason.

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It's 11:00pm at night now. I have been awake for a while. All I have been doing is replaying the limited memories that Jason and I had. You know, maybe I was too harsh. Maybe he was drunk. He did lie to me though.

Second chances could be an option - I slap myself back into reality. He cheated on you Clarence. But he is so nice. Now mind is fighting.

"URRGGHH". I roll over to find Katie is still asleep.

I sit next to the window and stare out at the sky for a bit. Heartbreak, so this is what it feels like.

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"Wake up lazy head!" A voice yelled into my year followed by a pillow in the face.

"Whhyyyyyy????" I moaned.

"You are going to meet my surfing instructor"

I opened up one eye and planted a goofy smile on my face as I slap Katie with a pillow and lock myself in a bathroom to get changed and to not get hit by another pillow.

I got changed into a simple black one-piece and I chucked a simple long sleeved, oversized jumper, before running downstairs, scoffing down cereal, and jumping into Adam's 'stunning silver baby'.

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Sorry its sooo short and sorry for the wait!!

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Danke Schen

Tras ^.^