unloyal ╱ lee know

048 | narration

Lee Minho
perspective

I hugged her with my tears falling when Jisung went inside the house.

I know I looked so gay right now, but I badly wanted to see her and explain everything, na nagsisisi akong ginawa ko 'yon, na mangangakong hindi ko ulit gagawin 'yon dahil siya lang talaga ang nasa puso't isipan ko.

One week ago without Gia was my nightmare. I don't know what to do when we lost our communication, hindi ako mapakali, 'yong parang may kulang sa araw-araw kong pamumuhay.

Kung hindi lang sana ako nalasing, kung hindi lang sana pinicture-an ni Aria ang nagawa ko...shit!

Hyunjin told me four days ago that he will help me to search everything about Aria's information. Matagal na akong may kutob na baka iisang tao lang ang nagmamanipula sa kaniya.

At bago muna 'yon, kailangan ko munang makipag-ayos sa girlfriend ko.

She didn't even move to hug me back, meaning she's really avoiding my presence.

"I'm sorry, my Gia, for hurting you. Kasalanan ko naman talaga ang lahat. I'm sorry..." I hugged her more tightly, pinipigilan kong huwag tumulo ang luha ko kaso tangina, hindi ko talaga kaya. Call me gay, I am.

Hindi siya nagsasalita, but I can feel her fast heartbeats.

"Nalasing lang kasi ako no'n. Hindi ko naman alam na mangyayari 'yon. I promise I will never do that again. I promise I will be loyal to you. Sana mapatawad mo ako at bumalik na ulit tayo sa dati," I whispered as I sounded desperate. Mahal ko kasi 'tong taong 'to, hindi ko kaya kung mawala pa siya sa'kin. Dibale nang mawala ang lahat, huwag lang siya.

Humiwalay ako sa yakap to see her beautiful face and f*ck, she's already crying. I hated it. Ako ang may kasalanan kung bakit siya nasasaktan.

I cupped her face and wiped the tears that was streaming from her lovely eyes.

I'm sorry...

"Can you give me another chance to change and to prove that you're the only girl I love?" I asked then I smiled sheepishly.

"Do I deserve second chance? Tell me, please."

Makalipas ang ilang minuto, she stopped crying. In just a glance, her eyes met mine. F*ck those tears. She doesn't deserve to be hurted like I just did.

"Minho," she said.

Nag-aabang ako ng sasabihin niya. I could tell I have the second chance. Sana mapatawad niya pa ako.

"I missed you, and yes, I want to give you another chance," she said. Without hesitation, I locked her in my arms and showers with soft kisses. Thank God for letting me meet this girl.