The Girl in the Mirror (Harry Styles fanfic)

Chapter 86

 Chapter 86

Sienna’s POV

I give up, I give up on Harry. He didn’t come, he didn’t want to be with me. It is hard to accept that he doesn’t want to be with me after everything we have been through. I love him and I thought he loved me too. You can’t just stop loving someone can you? I stand here feeling like a fool, I was a fool for ever thinking he would come after me. I shouldn’t have been so stupid, I shouldn’t have listened to my heart. It’s moments like this why I have kept my heart closed up for so long. This is the reason why I have been a bitch for so many years. I will never put myself out there again, not like I have this time. I should have known after everything I have done and everything we have been through that we could never work this out. We both knew it, I knew it deep down that he would never want me. My heart is in my stomach and it shatters as I stand here alone. I can’t believe I was brave enough to admit how I feel, then he never came back to me. I always dreamt that one day we would end up together, but our endless cycle of stupidity and love over this year has finally ended. It has ended and I haven’t had a say in it.

I can honestly say being with him has been the best and worst times of my life. I have been truly happy at times with him and I have been truly miserable at other times. I feel pretty worthless right now though. I try to fight it, but I’m not strong enough and my tears slowly fall down my face. I look to the floor and I cry. I let every bit of pain and sorrow come out. I don’t care who can see me crying, I am beyond caring what anyone else thinks about me. I am past caring about other people’s opinions. This is me, this is the real Sienna. I’m not some cold, careless, heartless bitch. I have feelings, I do care about other people and most importantly I am in love with Harry Styles. This is who I am and now that I can admit it, it is too late. The fact that I am in love with him is pointless.

I don’t bother to wipe the tears from my eyes because the tears still fall down my face. I finally accept this is it, it’s over and I give up. There isn’t any point in sticking around here anymore. I am no longer in the mood to celebrate. I just want to go home and drown in my own self-pity. I walk towards the exit in a world of my own. There will be fans and paparazzi outside. They will blind me with their cameras, but I don’t care. I don’t care that they will see my tear stained face and smudged make up. I just want my dad, he will make everything better and he will make all of this ok. “Sienna” I hear from behind me. My heart races and I slowly turn around. I turn fully and then I see him. Harry, my Harry. I stare at him in disbelief, I feel like I am imagining him being here. Is this really happening? Is he really here? My heart is in my throat and I feel like I can’t breathe. I cry desperately as I allow myself to have a glimmer of hope that he is back for me. He takes a step closer to me “I was always going to come for you” he says making my legs go weak. This can’t be happening, am I really getting my happy ending?

My legs feel like they are about to buckle and he must realise it because he is suddenly holding me up. My body ignites as I feel our skin on skin connection. “I never stopped loving you, I will never stop loving you” he tells me. I bury my face into his chest and all I can do is sob. I sob with happiness as I realise this is it, I have finally got my man back. “I love you” I cry into him. We fit together perfectly and it feels right. The people who have got in our way over the last months of our lives where pointless. They were just obstacles in our way. “I know it’s taken us along time to get here, but I swear this time I’m not letting you go” he whispers. I believe him, this time I really believe it.  I don’t know how long we stand here for, whilst he just holds me. I never want to let him go. He strokes my hair and kisses the top of my head. I swear he is crying himself even though he tries to hide it. “I’m never going to leave you again” he says “I promise”. I really hope he means that because I am done with playing games. I am done living without him and I don’t want to miss him anymore. I feel like I am never going to have to miss him again.