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Chapter 15: The Naked Truth

(Im going to be nice and release just ONE chapter because its Christmas. The rest will be up when I have finished all chapters and you will be glad to know I am getting there. Here's my gift to you and I hope you all have the best Christmas with loved ones and laughter and that this New Year brings you glad tidings and endless blessings. Love to you all, each and everyone ♥)

Ari 

One. Two. Three. Four. Until I lost count. 

Everything was swaying in front of me, and laced in a haze. Everything moving past me in a blur. Except her. The blonde haired girl who was holding me up. A smile present on her face as she looked at me. 

"Do you want to go back to my place?" she whispered in my ear seductively. 

At those words I closed my eyes as a pain overtook my heart. But I numbed it down, blocked it out and nodded my head at the enthusiastic girl standing in front of me. 

The rest I wasn't paying enough attention to. Too lost in my own head and its thoughts to realise we had already reached her humble abode. It wasn't a home, it wasn't a place of rest. Just a place where two people would come together and let out all that they held in, all that they kept from escaping them. Frustration, fears, pain, stress. Let it all go and find solace in that high that seems to escape us most of the time. 

She lay me down on her bed as my head hit the pillow. I felt numb. Nothing going through me but I was trying so desperately to feel something, anything. She started kissing me but it felt so wet, so sloppy and so weird. I had to clench up my fists to keep myself from pushing her off of me. Take a deep breath Ari. I knew myself well enough to know I just needed to shift my thinking. 

I exhaled a breath, closing my eyes and tried to focus on what she was doing. Her lips touching my skin, her fingertips grazing my skin, her hands pulling at my t-shirt. But everything felt wrong and rushed. 

She pulled my t-shirt over my head and took her top off. As she leaned down and kissed me and our chests collided I couldn't wane the uncomfortable feeling growing in the pit in my stomach. 

"Stop" I called out to her as my eyes shot open and I stared up at the white ceiling. 

She stopped kissing my neck and looked at me with confusion in her hazel eyes "What's wrong?" she asked as she brushed her hair out of her face, her long eye lashes fluttering back at me.

"Nothing" I mumbled. I couldn't even look her in the eyes. I swallowed a lump in my throat.

My autopilot took over. I placed her down on the bed and started kissing in between her breasts and I kissed down her chest until I reached her stomach and still I felt nothing. In fact it felt like with every kiss a part of me was burning away, breaking down and disintegrating into ashes only to disappear.

The very next second my body flinched and jerked back. I sat on the edge of the bed dumbfounded. Everything in front of my vision started swimming and I couldn't see or think straight.

The girl got up from lying down and sat upright. She looked at me "Erm...are you okay?" she was giving me a weird look that I couldn't decipher because of my state as everything in front of me rocked back and forth and her voice echoed loudly. 

"I...I don't know" I held my head in my hands and gripped my hair tightly. 

She moved a little forward and I moved back from her instinctively but I almost fell from the corner of her bed, luckily she grabbed my arm and pulled so we both sat in the middle of the bed, both topless, both close to each other but not close enough. Not how I wanted to be close tonight.