Fears

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   I fear my own luck. It's a silly thing, really.

  Some people don't even believe in luck. I wish it were true.

   That there was no such thing as luck, maybe then I could lead a normal life like everybody else.

  But instead, I wake up, finding myself afraid of what the day will deal out. Good or bad luck, it isn't for me to decide.

   I live in worry and fear of something bad happening. That is why I can't be happy.

  If I'm happy, it's good luck, which will then be affected by lack of luck. Something bad will happen, things will break, and all my happiness will fade away.

   It is also why I'm not allowed to love anyone. Platonically or romantically.
If I do, they will get hurt. They will die in a terrible way. All I can do is isolate myself from everyone, it's the only way I can protect the people I care about.

   But then he came and changed everything. My entire luck cycle.

   He claimed he too, was lucky, and that my luck wouldn't harm him. He was right.

   Whenever he was around, things were sound. Nothing bad has ever occurred.

  I am thankful for that.

   And even when I do worry about my luck crashing down and ruining everything, he's always there to ease me.

   So thank you,

Hajime Hinata.

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