Heartbroken [Completed] [Wattys 2019]

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*Percy

  I woke up unbearably hot. The source seemed to be coming from the side of my body and i tried to push it away before i heard a grunt. Oh, right, Nico had fallen asleep next to me after laying down.

  Nico seemed to still be asleep, so I moved closer next to him. He made me feel safe. He felt like home.

  Dr. Brown walked in carrying two trays of food. She asked me if i was okay to talk yet and i tried, i just wasn't able to get any words out- much like all those times i would just shrug to Nico- so i shook my head, once again resorting to sign language.

  She asked me when the last time i ate was because apparently I'm extremely malnourished. I told her its been almost two weeks and she said if I didn't starting eating she was going to need to feed me through a tube, much like the other ones i was already hooked up to.

  Seeing the truth in her threat, i picked up the tray and ate a piece of toast and i bite or two of eggs. After not eating, this made me feel extremely sick but Dr. Brown thanked me for the little i managed to eat.

  She also informed me about my condition. My leg was broken in two places and i was going to need to get some stitches today, some for what Gabe did and some for what i did. I nodded and thanked her as she left.

  I sipped on some water and Nico woke up just a few minutes later. "Hey Percy," he said groggily and rubbed his eyes. I nodded at him to acknowledge him.

  I pointed to his food and he nodded in understanding before rising from the bed to get the tray, leaving me feeling cold and alone. He soon returned after grabbing the tray though, once again giving me a sense of security although I don't know why. Maybe from all the drugs they have me on?

  Nico sits down next to me again so that our shoulders and thighs are touching. He glances at me, asking if this is okay. I nod once and the ghost of a smile crosses his face before he starts eating in silence.

  I begin to test my vocal cords again until i can force so words through mt mouth. "Thank you," its more of a croak that anything.

  Nico looks at me confused. "'Thank you'? Is that what you said? What for?"

  Although my throat feels like sandpaper i take a sip of water and try to persuade my vocal cords to once again work. "For coming. To see me... All i did was get mad when you found me. But thanks. For visiting. And helping me." My words weren't able to explain my gratitude well enough but Nico visiting and going out of his way to do that and then to help me- that made me feel wanted. Accepted. Even if my previous thoughts of being a charity case were true, he at least had to care a little right? Otherwise he wouldn't have gone so far out of his way?

  "Of course, theres no thanks necessary. I hate seeing people i care about hurt," Nico responded to my appreciation.

  'People i care about...' Something about that made my heart flutter. Apparently through all my recent pain i had started developing... Something for Nico, although i dont know what.

  Of course, Dr. Brown had to walk through the door right then, interrupting my thoughts. Nico had just finished eat and set his tray off to the side and hopped out of the bed after seeing the small smirk Dr. Brown wore. I glanced at him longingly before i even realised it and a blush crept up on my cheeks.

  Dr. Brown finally announced why she had interrupted after checking some of my vitals. "We are reading to start on stitches if you are Percy."

  "Im ready," i responded, startling her with my voice.

  Her response showed some of the joy she found in it when she simply said, "great! Nico can you please step out of the room with me so Percy can get prepped and started?"

*Nico

I nodded then looked at Percy to make sure he would be okay alone. He gave me a small wave which i took to be the stamp of approval before i left the room, following Dr. Brown into the hallway.

  I decided to ask somw questoons that have been bothering me. "He's gonna be okay, right? Both physically and mentally?"

  Dr. Brown sighed. "Physically, he'll be back to normal in no time. Mentally will take a little longer because of the self depricating thoughts- yes belive it or not, i know self harm when i see it- and abuse, but your doing miracles for him by being there for him. But-" she cut off suddenly and bit her lip. She glanced around and lowered her voice. "-but- you like him, thats obvious, and he feels something for you, something similar to how you feel- be careful. Make sure he doesn't become obsessive or needy or overprotective. This can happen sometimes through a trauma bond, when he falls for you because of some trauma. Trauma bonds aren't bad, just make sure it doesn't turn toxic for either of you."

  I nodded, not really knowing what to say. She dropped me off at the waiting room with a chipper, "have a nice morning. Ill be back to get you as soon as we're done!" And plenty to think about.

  So, Percy liked me. Dr. Brown has said that multiple times now and i think I'll take her word for it, being a doctor and all. But he may become dependent on me because of how much he's been abused? Do i really want that? No... but i do want Percy... and whatever comes with him. I'll help him. We'll get yhrough everything together. Because, although i hate to admit it, I love Percy. I hate to see him this way. Of a relationship were to happen, i wouldn't let it become toxic. I swear it to myself.

A/N
Hey, its me, back with another overdue chapter. Thanks for waiting guys. Also, im at 400+ reads which is pretty neat so yay!

Anyway, for those of you who read my A/N on the last chapter, im sorry if i scared you. Im fine now and i changed the last chapter A/N. Thank you, thank you so much to the people who commented. It really helped me! Please keep doing that stuff to everyone because a comment on a wattpad story can be enough to save someone. Thank you a ton i love you guys who helped me out <3

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So, yeah, keep living and pushing forward. It will get better so please dont give up. I'm hear to talk if you need encouragement. Remember, no matter how you feel, there is always someone who cares about you (they're not faking!) and someone who would miss you <3