"What Is Wrong With Me?"~ A Greenflame Story

Chapter Eight: Dreadful Nights

Kai's Point of View~
I had to be taken away from Lloyd and placed in a sanitarium because I 'spazzed out' and attacked. I didn't know what was going on or where I was going, but the staff members of the sanitarium explained everything to me. The staff placed me in a small room with barred windows and a small bed. There was absolutely no color, just a blank, empty room. They locked me in and told me they'd bring a tray of food in later. When they left, I sat on the bed and cried into the palms of my hands. "What is wrong with me?!" I shouted into my hands. Then, my head began throbbing and I felt sick to my stomach. I groaned and laid back on the bed, hoping that this was all a bad dream that I needed to wake up from. "Please, let this all be a horrible nightmare that I gotta wake up from," I said to myself. I laid there for a couple of minutes before hearing a knock at my door. "Who is it?" I asked. "Lloyd and the others," Lloyd responded. I felt a wave of embarrassment wash over me. A part of me didn't want them to see me like this, but the other felt relieved to see them, and that side won. "Come in," I mumbled loud enough so they'd be able to hear. The lock clicked and the door opened. Everyone came in slowly and Nya had tears in her eyes. "Lloyd told us what happened," Cole said. I was silent. "We're really worried about you Kai, and maybe, this will help you," Jay said. "Maybe," I said. Lloyd stood in the corner, looking down at the floor. He was staying away from me, just like said he'd do. I sighed and looked down at the blank covers. "Maybe, I am just a monster, an animal. I don't think anyone can save me from what I've become." I said. "Don't say that, you're not a monster. You'll get better soon enough." Nya assured me. I couldn't stand to look at her in the eyes, knowing that caused her pain and suffering. I looked at her wrist and saw a couple of small scars and a tiny bruise. "Your...your wrist," I said. "Oh, um, don't worry about it. It's healing." She said. Tears began to fill my eyes and drop onto the covers. "I'm so sorry, all of you. I hurt you, both physically and mentally. I know there's nothing I can do to make up for it, especially to you, Lloyd. All I can do is ask for your forgiveness, and it's okay if you don't want to forgive me because I probably wouldn't forgive myself either. I'm so sorry." I said as I tried holding back more tears. I then felt a warm embrace and arms wrap around me tightly. I looked up and saw that the one hugging me, was Lloyd. He didn't say anything. I slowly hugged him back and tears fell onto his shoulder. The hug lasted a while before we pulled away and Lloyd stepped back. A few hours passed by and it was about 11:00 at night. Lights had gone out and it was silent it the sanitarium and some of the other patients had gone off to sleep, but I couldn't. I kept tossing and turning, eyes shut tightly, biting on my own teeth, and curled into a ball. I wanted to fall asleep so badly and try and a full night's rest, but I was unable to. Memories and bad thoughts clouded my mind. I opened my eyes and got out of bed. I stared out the window and up at the glimmering moon. The moon's color and the way it shined reminded me of Lloyd's bright and positive attitude and his amazing blond locks. I sighed and slumped down to the cold floor.

"I open my eyes, I try to see, but I'm blinded by the white light. I can't remember how, I can't remember why I'm lying here tonight. And I can't stand the pain, and I can't make it go away. No, I can't stand the pain. How could this happen to me? I've made my mistakes. Got nowhere to run. The night goes on as I'm fading away. I'm sick of this life. I just wanna scream. How could this happen to me? Everybody's screaming. I try to make a sound, but no one hears me. I'm slipping off the edge. I'm hanging by a thread. I wanna start this over again. So, I tried to hold onto a time when nothing mattered and I can't explain what happened, and I can't erase the things that I've done. No, I can't. How could this happen to me? I've made my mistakes. Got nowhere to run. The night goes on as I'm fading away. I'm sick of this life. I just wanna scream. How could this happen to me? I've made my mistakes. Got nowhere to run. The night goes on as I'm fading away. I'm sick of this life. I just wanna scream. How could this happen to me?" I sighed and lowered my head onto my knees. "I just want this to end," I said softly. Soon, my head began to hurt again and I clutched onto it. But this pain wasn't like the pain before, this pain was unbearable. I yelled in pain and fell on my side, still clutching my head. There was banging on the door and shouted. "Hey! Keep it down in there!" The man behind the door shouted. Then, I had lost control over my body.

'Other' Kai's Point of View~
I arose from the floor and looked around the new environment. It was a small white room with not much in it besides a bed, table, and chair. There was shouting coming from outside the door. "Let me out of here!" I demanded. "Absolutely not! Now, you better be quiet!" The man shouted. I began to pound on the door and yell. "Let me out!" I yelled. "No!" The man shouted. Then, the man who was accompanied by two others, barged in the room and held me down. I struggled to break free, but the man put a straight jacket on me and strapped my arms in the middle, preventing the usage of them. They also strapped my legs together. Finally, the man placed on a plastic face mask to keep me quite. My shouts were muffled and my movements were limited. I knew I couldn't continue on like this, I needed to get out of here. So, I left.

Kai's Point of View~
I regained control over my body and I couldn't move well or speak well. "Are you alright now?" A man asked. I nodded. He stood there for a moment before removing the mask on my face. "I'm so sorry! I couldn't stop it!" I said repeatedly. "Hey, slow down there, relax. Take deep breaths and calm down." The man said. I did what he said and calmed down. "Now, that you're all calmed down, try and get some rest. We're going to keep this straight jacket on you just to make sure you don't hurt others or yourself." The man told me. I nodded and he and the other men left the room, leaving me in the dark with the moonlight beaming through the curtains. It was uncomfortable in the jacket, but I knew it was for my own good to keep it on. I laid down and my eyes were heavy and irritated. I soon fell asleep with the sheets barely covered over my waist, but I didn't care. All I wanted to do is have a good dream and wish that this nightmare I was in would end.