MINE ➸* YΔNDERE MALE X MALE READER

Chapter 13

Hello!!, Its me Leaf. here is the chapter, please make sure to read the author note at the bottom! Also explicit language in this chapter.

~Leaf

Xanda's POV

Thoughts rushing to my head, seeing Y/n with other other people makes my blood boil. the way he smiles at them, laughs, can connect to his other friends makes me jealous. HE Should be looking at ME. He should be Laughing with ME, NOT THEM! calm down Xanda don't do something you'll regret.

Sitting at the canteen table pushing the food around, a sign escapes my lips. What would It be like to have Y/n's friends hot blood oozing from there tortured body onto my hands feel like?

I turned to him. His bright eyes, smile and even that H/c that I only beg to run my hands thought. Standing up, my feet drag me over to Y/n's figure sitting. I don't know what happened but the next thing I'm doing is pulling Y/n off of his seat and carrying him on my back, arm hooked around the knee joint so he couldn't use him legs and walked out the canteen, earphones in to get rid of Y/n's yelling telling me to put him and allowed Monsta X's shoot out to play adding to my mood and power. 

moving into the courtyard I let go of Y/n and let him drop onto the ground like a sack of potato's. Jealousy emitting from my very being slowly letting the monster out knowing those other boys were trespassing past a line, the very line I place. The line that means I have to dispose of them soon, one by one. (I'M SO SORRY! XD)

"WHAT THE ACTUAL HELL XANDA!!" Y/n now rubbing there body- probably gonna for a brush- stood up. His hand connecting to my face. Hard.

His soft smile now gone and his face changing to that of anger. Finally as if that slap was a wake up call, everything came flooding to me.

  "Why the HELL would you pick me up and just fucking drop me!, what in your right mind think that was funny? My bag is in there and that I was hanging out with Mason and the others and that was embarrassing!! what are they gonna think?! " 

Taking back, I never thought Y/n would raise his voice at me. saying there name made me sick to the stomach, what happened to the shy Y/n I grown to love and tease, they have tainted my Y/n. 

  "What the hell is wrong with me? You wanna know what the hell is wrong with me Y/n?" My voice turned deeper, threatening ,no longer the sweet tone. The same tone when Y/n didn't went to this school. "I'LL TELL YOU WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME Y/N. YOU BEEN HANGING OUT WITH THOSE GUYS FOR A WHOLE WEEK BARELY SAYING HI TO ME, NO GREETING AND NO GOING FOR HOT CHOCOLATE. DON'T YOU THINK I'LL BE JEALOUS? JEALOUS YOU'VE BEEN HANGING OUT WITH OTHER GUYS AND IGNORING ME FOR DAY! WELL? CAT GOT YOUR FUCKING TONGUE" I was crossing my own line, My hands shaking, I want to lock him up, I want to KILL them boys. I WONT Y/N TO MYSELF.

Y/n slowly walked back and his back hit the tree. before he could say anything I slammed both my hands beside his head earning a gasp of shock and the smell of fear made me excited but for the wrong reason. I have to calm down.

  "L-look Y/n I'm sorry...I haven't been myself lately but I got angry that you haven't hanged out with me this week unless it's in class." I can feel him shake. A singular tear escaped his E/c eye. fuck.

  Y/n looked down "I-I'm sorry X, Its just...things have been weird for me lately. everything is weird and I hate it. But I also have other friends than just you...a-and I, I should have hanged out with you" Tears now running down his face as he tried to wipe them away quickly ashamed.  Taken back, I am at a lose for words. I just hurt Y/n, I made him cry. My heart feels like its pulling itself apart, words engulf my head and I know I need to go. I bring Y/n in for a hug letting his scent calm me down, tears stain my top and hands grip onto me like he's holding on for dear life but he doesn't know yet. that he might be.

I made a mistake, He's gonna kill me. 

Y/n will be my downfall. The bullet to my heart.

 he's Toxic 

I let go of Y/n and look at him, tears threatening to fall from mine and I'm not ashamed to let him see me cry, to see me vulnerable. And I ran, ran so fast that everything was a blur. Home, I need my isolation, away from him. He is toxic to me, Ill go insane but the thought of him with Mason and his little group made me sick, my head spinning as I put in the pin code and finally I was away. My mind ripping at itself, I nee Y/n I need HIM, I NEED HIM. I bury my head in my hands and look at the knife in the knife box in the white kitchen. white everywhere. I go and grab the knife, A sinister smile forms. I now know what I got to do.

finally!!! Hope you enjoyed that roller coaster of emotions, I had so much fun writing this! I'm sorry that it took long to update and bring you all a new chapter, as Ill be updating every weekend so it'll be better to get a full chapter out and more time for me to put in my best efforts and get ideas. hopefully you don't mind. I might cut down the time I update to maybe half a week when I get more of a flow to the writing.

~Leaf