Baddest in town

Chapter 8

Everybody loves their parents, even if they do something you don't like. I grew up without the type of love a child should get from their mom or dad, I always thought they just wanted me to get tough so I wouldn't let people get to me that fast. But when I looked at other kids and the amount of love they got from their parents it made me question everything, my mother didn't pick me up from school while she didn't even work, my dad didn't try to protect me from the world like other dads do. I got yelled at for stupid stuff I didn't even do most of the time. When I was 10 I realised that everything I went through wasn't normal at all and I always cried at night when I was alone in my bedroom, I hoped that when I woke up everything would be normal. That my mother would go shopping with me and that my dad would be there for me when I had a nightmare, but that day never came. When they moved to New Jersey I was so happy because I finally got away from them since they disgust me, they were hitting me for being a kid and now they leave me behind without a hesitation. For that I'll never forgive them and I hate them, even tho deep down I still love them and know that there's good inside them because I believe that everyone has a good side some people just show it less than others. I hate myself for it because they don't want me they made that very clear.

"Cherray" Someone grabbed my shoulders to shake me.

I blinked a few times, getting out of my stare zone. As I blinked a tear escaped my eyes, Lonzo wiped it away and pulled me in for a hug. I cried for the 100th time and I'm not proud of it, I just feel like I'm trying to avoid the black hole that was coming my way but somehow someone pushed me right into it and there is no coming out of it. I hate the feeling, I hate waking up knowing I have to pretend to be okay just so everybody will leave me alone.

We arrived back in Chino Hills a week ago, I told Lavar that I was okay with him and Tina getting full custody of me. They have showed me more love than my parents ever did or will, and I'll be them forever thankful for that.

"You okay lil girl?" Lonzo asked rubbing my back.

Despite the fact that I nodded my head I didn't want him to let go, I craved the comfort. It made me feel loved, like I do belong in this world. I've never been this sad in my entire life, and I wish I wasn't but oh well. Denise and the girls tried to cheer me up as much as possible by taking me out on shopping sprees and getting manicures, meanwhile the boys tried to be around as much as they could to just be there for me. A part of me feels like I'm exaggerating the situation since they weren't great parents anyways, but another part in me feels like I'm dying inside since they just left me like I didn't even exist anymore and it hurts like a bitch to be betrayed by the only 2 people in life who should always have your back no matter what. I'm not going to have a mother standing by my side when I give birth, I'm not going to have a father who gives me away at my wedding. They're not dead, but they're in jail for at least 20 years due all sort of illegal stuff they did in italy and they lost full custody of me, and when they get out they aren't allowed to even be in the same town as me. So I'll basically never see them, almost looks like they're dead. That's a lot to take in for a 15 year old, and I wish this on nobody.

"Ey! Let's do sumn fun" Lonzo said grabbing my hand and taking me with him to the others.

"Let's watch a movie in the backyard together like old times!!" Denise exclaimed, everybody agreed.

Gelo, Ejay and Lamelo ran upstairs to get some mattresses, blankets and pillows while me, Izzy and Denise went to the kitchen to make some nacho's. When we were done with the nacho's Denise grabbed the scale while me and Izzy grabbed each a bottle of apple cider, when we made our way outside we put the food and drinks on a table next to the mattresses.

"Are you stupid?! This cable is over here chilling and you didn't see it?" Eli said making Lonzo frown.

"ArE yOu StUpId" Lonzo mocked him making me chuckle. "Are you stupid?! You been standing at the exact same spot the entire time while I was running around and yo ass didn't see it either" He continued, Eli rolled his eyes.

Eli's ass always get's into a discussion with someone and most of the time he is totally in the wrong but won't admit it which makes things even funnier because the other person will get mad as fuck. Lonzo always seems to have a way to shut him up tho.

"Eli yo black ass didn't do shit so sit yo ass down!" LaMelo yelled.

"Uh usually it's YO ass who doesn't do shit, only reason why you doin it now is cuz Gelo will rock yo shit" Eli said making me and the others scream.

"Eli shut up and plug this cable in the socket before I rock YO shit" Lonzo said.

Eli rolled his eyes again and did what he was told. The boys made a HUGE comfy space to lay on, Gelo and Izzy were already laying down in the back and Denise was on here phone waiting for Lonzo. I sat down in the front waiting for the screen to pop up on the wall, Eli plopped down next to me and LaMelo next to Eli. After some minutes Lonzo finally found out what he did wrong and it turned out Eli's dumb ass didn't even plug in the main cable inside the house for electricity, I don't have to say much for you to imagine what happened next.

"I lowkey thouht Melo was the dumbest around here, but yo ass proved me wrong" Lonzo said annoyed making me laugh which caused Eli to push me.

"I am far from being the dumbest for all I know YOU are" Me and the others started to laugh so hard at the fact that Eli was saying all this stuff that didn't even make sence.

"Let's just watch the movie guys" Denise said wiping her eyes.

Lonzo finally sat down after standing in front of Eli for 5 minutes with his arms crossed, arguing and what not. Ejay was sitting behind me with his legs bent so I grabbed a pillow and put it against his legs before leaning against sthem. Eli tried to do the same but Lonzo kicked him in the back making me wheeze as I tried not to laugh, this was the first time since I'vd heard the news that I'm genuinely laughing.

"Nigga get yo ugly ass feet away from me" I heard Melo say to Gelo.

Me and Melo are on good terms again I guess, ever since the last day in Hawaii we stopped arguing and acted normal again so that's good. He has been acting a bit more distant tho, must be a new fase. I stopped caring about what he did and didn't do. Because I know if I do what I usually did we'll be arguing again in no time, he clearly has a little secret that he doesn't want to come out so I'll let him be. He can't keep it forever and once I find out I'll see if it was worth arguing and shit.