Anonymous lover (Phan)

Chapter 3: The unexpected reply

A/N:

Heeey my lovelies! Tuesday has finally come, yaaay! I think an update is in order. Do enjoy!

(Dan's Pov:)

...I scroll down to read the whole message...

 From Anonymous:

Yaay! :D Well of course I still do you spoon - I hope that didn't offend you o.O And I love EVERYTHING you reblog, which includes Pokémone especially! That's why I started speaking to you in the first place, cos if you love the things I do, then you're obviously awesome! ;) To answer your question my favourite band has to be hmm...MUSE! Matt Bellamy is a God! And nuuu m'nat stalking you *cough* er maybe ;D I mean why wouldn't I? You share my love for everything on your blog! Pluuus you are nice and you haven't told me to go away yet so...friends? ^-^ <3 

As I finish reading the message I sat back slightly and let out my held in breath. I was so scared of being judged by the guy and appearing weird but he's just so adorable and sweet! Wait... did I just call him that? Seriously Dan? No. Stop! Like...right now before you get to carried away.. okay? Maybe..?

But he wants to be friends with me? I wasn't expecting this at all. I mean I didn't even think he'd reply and if he did then it would be something like telling me that he no longer wanted to talk to me. But wow this is very different from what I thought and to be honest, I wasn't prepared for this kinda reaction. So that's probably why I'm so surprised at I guess such a small gesture...for others anyways.

No one apart from Chris and Pj has ever been nice to me or even regarded me as someone who exists. And Phil just happened to want to be friends?! I've only just started speaking to him and he already wants to?! Like is there some kind of code of conduct or ruled which go along with this? What did I do to get the chance to speak to someone so nice? Plus he's the one that thought I would tell him to not talk to me. Was he worrying about me rejecting him and not talking to him? Me... of all people?!

But what if we become friends and then he finds out about me being gay? I mean I'm not ashamed of it but then again, I also don't like hiding things from people who I regard as friends, so I'd eventually just blurt it out and he'd end up knowing. I can't trust this mysterious Phil just yet with something that makes me who I am. Because I've only just started talking to him, I'm not too sure that he will take it well... I can't really assume that he won't or will. He might just be some nasty homophobic guy...I can't just assume it's going to be all sunshine and rainbows. But I do know that I don't want to lose a potential friend, who at the moment seems amazing.

Although... he loves Muse and Pokémon and shares my views on Matt Bellamy so... I officially love this guy...platonically of course... Oh my llamas Dan shut up already!

If this guy is offering then who am I not accept his frienship? I mean he asked it as a question so it's my choice right? Which means that he wants to as well, and isn't just saying that? Why would he even have to ask? I don't exactly have friend requests pouring out my ears at the moment, and he is really cool. However, he doesn't know anything personal about me...yet.

So yes I will accept his request and become friends with the anonymous Phil... I'll just have to accept the consequences, if he decides to leave me when he finds out who I really am, like the countless others. Then I'll just have to deal with it I suppose. I'm willing to take that risk and open up to new ideas for a friendship with an awesome guy.

After what felt like hours of thinking to myself, I'm suddenly pulled out of my heavenly thoughts, when I realise that I have to reply to his message or he'll probably think I'm ignoring him. Which I really don't want him to think. Not the best way to start and friendship if he does.