Art Of Letting You Go ✓

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"Aish, really?!" I whined as I lost for the sixth time.

"It's unfair, you know this game too well!" I crossed my legs on the couch.

He chuckled at me and patted my head teasingly, "I'll let you win then."

"No, that's stupid," I rolled my eyes, initiating another round to start.

We played another round, and I surprisingly won. Jimin probably let me win on purpose.

I glared at him, "you let me win on purpose, didn't you?"

He shook his head and chuckled, "why are you mad? You wanted to win, right?"

"Yeah, but I'm not much of a loser to win just because you let me," I whined once again.

"Aish, let's stop this," He scooted closer to me and placed an arm around me.

"I'm scared of the angry Saerin, you sound like a dinosaur," He jokingly said, a cheeky smile on his face.

"Yeah, I'm a dinosaur indeed, so you better stop teasing me!"

"Are you on your red days? You're a little grumpy," He asked, placing a strand of hair behind my ear.

I shook my head.

"Hmm.." He hummed. "Are you the occurence of events in a happy way?"

"I have no idea about what you're saying," I raised an eyebrow in confusion.

"Because you're my Saerindipity," his hand reached for my cheek, gently rubbing his thumb.

"W-what?" I admit, I was a little flustered, but it was impressive.

"Haha, nothing." He looked away, smiling to himself.

My gaze averted to the night sky, which was shown through the balcony's glass door.

"Have you been to the rooftop?" Jimin turned to me.

"No," I replied.

Jimin stood up and held out his hand infront of me.

I blinked a few times before placing my hand on his. He smiled and led me up to the rooftop.

A sight of the dark blue night sky dotted with twinkling stars. It was a starrier than usual.

I felt Jimin's hands travel to my shoulders, turning me to face him.

He leaned down, his gaze landing on my lips. I flinched. He paused, and I was astounded when he engulfed me into a hug instead.

I let myself melt in his embrace, under the moonlight shining down.

It's a beautiful night.

Yet, it always feels like something is missing.

Whenever I'm with Jimin, my mind always remembers someone else.

And for that, I feel sorry.

If I had to pick someone except Taehyung, Jimin would really be my first choice.

In his arms, I always feel - protected.

He led me to sit near the edge of the rooftop, where we quietly admired the starry night sky.

His arms around my waist secured me not to fall. It was a little dangerous, so we weren't really at the mere edge of the roof - just almost.

"The night is so beautiful, right?" I said as my eyes traced the stars which formed a constellation.

He murmured something but not enough for me to hear.

"Huh?" I asked, cautiously turning to him.

"Nothing," He smiled, shaking his head.

There was peaceful silence for a while until I spoke.

"Some people say the cost of not following your heart is spending the rest of your life wishing you had."

It was a little random but don't you think random thoughts are perfect for times like this?

"Not all the time. If you might hurt or step on other people, don't follow your heart. We shouldn't be selfish, because it's the exact opposite of love."

I didn't know Jimin as a person who speaks deep and meaningful words, so I was amazed at how true his words were.

Indeed, love isn't selfish.

Now that I think of it, am I being selfish?