Art Of Letting You Go ✓

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Mira's POV

Days had passed yet I still felt the suffocating pain in my chest.

It hasn't sunken in completely, not yet. Everything is all too sudden, and it's my fault.

My thoughts are still bugging me. I honestly thought it would be easy to let him go if Saerin comes back, but I was wrong.

I want to fight for him but I don't want to fight for a person who is just waiting for me to give up.

I never thought it would be this hard to love someone who isn't done loving someone else.

I knew I could've been selfish and tried to keep Taehyung for myself, but that just isn't love. I sighed as I stared at the ceiling, the intoxicating sight of nothingness surrounding me.

My new apartment was quiet, and dull. The ambiance kept my mind blanked out, and my heart isn't moving on at all.

I feel discontented, and I feel like I need to do something more. I hate this feeling, I always have the lower hand.

My call rang, the only sound heard inside the deafeningly silent room.

"Mira-yah, annyeong," My mother's voice made my heart feel a little light.

I had no energy to talk at all.

"Hey, are you okay?"

I swallowed a lump in my throat as a tear formed on the brim of my eyes when she said that. It's like I was finally triggered— and my tear gate was now opened.

I covered my mouth, letting out muffled sobs as the call prolonged.

"What's wrong, darling?" Her voice was soothing, one that I really needed.

"It's over." I simply said, crying my eyes out.

Silence took over as I sobbed, facing the window where I could see darkness only lit up by the moon and stars.

"Tell me, eomma. Is it possible to take away pain when it feels like I can't even move a muscle?"

"Look at the stars," She said and I tilted my head up, gazing at the stars.

"There a million— no, a billion of stars in the sky. Don't focus on that one star, okay?"

I sighed as a faint smile crawled onto my lips. "I think I'll have a hard time starting over now that He's gone."

"You were happy even before Taehyung came, you can still be as happy as that. You'll get over him. Healing takes time, but eventually, you'll be okay. Storms don't take forever."

Her words enlightened me a little, a ray of hope forming on the dull sky inside my soul.

"Taehyung loved you," She paused, "but maybe he's not for you."

"One day, you'll find someone that chooses you and will choose you everyday. And that's when you'll be thankful everything happened the way it did, even the worst times you've had."