The Upper East Side (GOSSIP GIRL FANFICTION)

BITTER LOVE

Quinn's POV

It's been days since the baby shower blow up and the city has never been more dead Chuck is no where to be found, Nate is running around trying to break into the Waldorfs where Blair has permanently locked herself away an Serena well she's crying in her room door locked it seemed everyone around me was going through a rough time and tho I felt bad I couldn't help but pray this was the second chance me and chuck needed.

*smash*

"Serena" I yell running up to her door before hearing another smash I panicked trying to unlock the door.

"SERENA OPEN UP!" I banged as she finally did I walked in the room seeing picture frames smashed all over the floor her mascara down her face for once at look at my sister and realised even the strongest of us aren't immune to a broken heart.

"All my boyfriends....... everyone I love.......leaves me lies to me..........dad did........dan did........now Nate" she sniffles as I place my arms around her.

"It's gonna be okay sissy I promise" I say assuring her I could feel her heart shattering with every last word.

"How did you do it?" She asked as I was unsure of what the exact question was,

"Do what?" I passed her tissues

"Move on from Chuck, you make it look so easy" she slurred as she looked gloomy

"I didn't, I can't, I won't, I love him but sometimes what we love and want most isn't what's best for us the cons out weighted the pros an he stepped up to be a dad i knew I could love him and let him go you just have to keep telling yourself that" I smiled as she held me tight

"COME NOW"
I read a text from Blair I excuse myself to see what she wants

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as I walk into the waldofs I take a breathe clearing my mind yes I had so many unanswered questions but I'd get the answers in time

"What do you want Blair? Can we make this quick I'm trying to mend a lot of the pain you caused" I say as she glares at me

"i didn't mean to hurt anyone" she says as I sight a tear falling from the heartless crow herself

" well you did it's one thing to hurt me, your boyfriend, Nate but your best friend seriously? Look I'd love to stay an chat but let's save time an skip to the part where you tell me what you want" I say crossing my arms.

"This" she pulls a letter from her handbag, I raised a eyebrow walking over to claim it my name written all over the outside

"it was written more for you then me i panicked when I heard chuck was gonna tell you about what's in there so I lied I stole it I stole your future an im sorry" a tear comes from the coldest of hearts

"Thankyou" I say walking out of the apartment

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i sat on the terrace of the palace chuck wasn't home i open the letter and see a photo of chuck and i with a few hand written pages.

true love
a concept i felt as though someone as heartless as me could never possibly feel, until i meet quinn i wanted to run away to fight this feeling but i soaked up every intimate moment with her each second melting my icy cold heart, the taste of lips everything that we kissed i couldn't get enough, god knows I've tried but I never can seem to give her up, because i need this i want this from this day on I can no longer get enough of this bitter love i am completely and utterly consumed by the beauty the brains the key to heart that is Quinn Van Derwoodsen, she gives me paradise a never ending high a feeling in my veins that's like no other through the pain and for that people may call me insane cause i can't give her up there is so many things I wish I had said to her she once asked me to choose her choose us choose happiness, i just hope one day she can do the same because the person I ......

"The person I what ?!" I panicked looking for the next page"

"I love the most forever and always is you" chuck surprises me as my jaw drops and eyes fill with tears

"You what do you really you love me ?" I pant while letting a tear fall to the letter locking eyes with chuck as he walks closer to me

"I can't imagine a day I won't I love you, and I always will" he smiles as I run into his arms he picks me up kissing me pinning me against the wall outside the smile gleaming between each soft kiss.

"I love you too" I cried as he slides open the door to the apartment carrying me into his room.

"i want all of you" he demands unbuttoning my shirt, as I pull off the suspenders unzipping his pants. He lays me down on the bed I lift my hips as he tugs my skirt off and throws it onto the floor my nails claw his back. As he kisses my neck, he stops and I look up in confusion

"Promise you won't leave me, break me or lie to me ever?" His eyes trail my face he's vulnerable and needing my reassurance.

"Forever, I mean it" I say back as he keeps kissing my neck while his hands brush over my nipples as he moves his kisses down my neck lower to my stomach making them softer and softer as he places his hands between my legs inserting his fingers moving his head down lower his kiss on my pelvis then his tongue inside me I moan grabbing the bed sheets trying to stay quite as he come up for air our eyes locked he kisses his way back up before chocking me with his hand while using the other to guide his cock between my legs as he starts thrusting I can hardly breath and I love it each thrust we kiss a smile all over my face he picks up the pace leaving me with no breath, I resist the urge to cum as I see he's almost there

"Cum for me" he says as I let go he finishes at the same time and lays beside me I snuggle into him.

"Wanna talk about it ?" I ask knowing he's been through a lot and sex isn't the answer to all our problems

"Right now I wanna cuddle with someone I really love and I need them to just be here" he says I kiss him resting my head on his chest