I DONT WANNA LIVE FOREVER

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"Excited for tonight?" Serena says trying on one of my dresses completely interrupting my day dreaming.

"I Guess" I say with my head lowered looking at the dress i picked out.

"It's chuck..." She says hugging me

"Serena No one gets it i feel like everyone says they do but they don't were just to complicated for even ourselves" I say sitting on the edge of my bed.

"You know just because I'm dating Nate doesn't mean i won't be there for you tonight at the party." She says fixing my hair.

"Thank you, but lets not let it ruin the night i am single after all" I say winking at Serena

"Well I'm not getting smashed tonight so i can for sure hold back your hair when you throw up." She says laughing.

 "Thankyou Serena, not for this but for being here for me"I say turning as she standing in the door frame.

"were sister its what we do and you'd do the same thing for me" She says smiling leaving my room.

I start getting ready hair makeup the whole lot i texted Nate asking can i bring a friend and he told me obviously i could. I look in the mirror at my outfit thinking i have killed it, if chuck was gonna see me i wanted to be the one with the power. he has all the power and could shatter my heart in seconds because I'm weak and dependent on chuck bass. 


@QuinnVanDerWoodsen - partner in crime the perfect team

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@QuinnVanDerWoodsen - partner in crime the perfect team. @ LoLaBrooks


We arrive at Nates drinks are flowing light weights are throwing up the works. I spot chuck across the room and pretend i can't even see him. 

"Quinn" I hear Serena call sipping on my entry glass of wine.

"Lola this is my sister Serena, Serena this is lola brooks she's a friend from back in new york boarding school" They hug as i take a sip of wine avoiding contact with who i can only imagine is the playboy himself chuck bass.

"So how do you like the upper east side?" Serena says to lola

"Its good its time the city has a shake up" She says joking but i knew she wasn't.

"Who's that?" Lola says winking at a boy with dark hair.

"Thats my friend slash ex boyfriend slash step brother dan." Serena Says

"He's hot," She says i jab her as she can't date serena's ex boyfriend

"Oh he's a writer he normally doesn't come to parties and talk to girls he super focused on his goals" we all sip our drinks ignoring the awkwardness 

a little while later me and Lola, Serena and Nate were dancing i notice blair standing alone i go over to talk to her.

"Well what do you want to laugh at me for sleeping with chuck bass and then getting thrown out when i got back" She says crossing her arms

"I dont wanna laugh at you, come have fun and party with us." I say putting out  my hand.

"Seriously? I keep forgetting your not from here but i don't wanna stay here all night so" she takes my hand and we go dance after some shots and all that we find jenny and she joins us all we watch out for her as she is younger and shouldn't get wrecked at a party. Serena and Blair go to the bathrooms as blair felt sick was probably all the shots we made her down. and i don't know where anyone else went i was alone i walked out onto the balcony overlooking the city.

"Sexy dance moves in a room full of girls i could only see you." I feel a body come up behind me. I immediately know who it is.

"What do you want chuck" i say not turning around.

"I'm up all night and every day thinking about you because your the only person i could turn to" he says whispering in my ear i turn around to face him.

"you bought this on yourself were not friends chuck" I say crossing my arms.

"your my best friend with benefits you know you miss this the way it was" he says

"I miss the chuck bass that would care about me and treat me like a human not this dumb bad boy replica that insults me" I say 

"You will never love anyone the way you love me" He says grabbing my arm.

"I hope i never do this love is abusive and toxic and makes me feel weak its not a healthy love chuck" I say pulling away

"Goodbye Quinn" He walks away whisky in hand i turn looking out at the view crying.

"Don't listen to the idiot" I hear a male British voice behind me i turn around to see a dark haired boy.

"he just a...." I start saying before he cuts me off

"Prick dont defend him he is disgusting talking to a girl as stunning as you like that" He says wiping a tear i had.

"I'm Quinn" I say smiling shaking his hand

"Zayn" He says 

"How do you know nate?" I ask thinking this guys a complete random

"The captain was in the uk and we met knowing him for like 10 years" He says

"Sound more like family 10 years is a long time on the upper east side marriages are lucky to last that long little alone friendships." I say

"Trouble in paradise" He says talking about chuck as he points to behind us where he is

"Yea hes a player and i fell for him... I'm a idiot" I say nodding my head looking down

"No your not why have you let him made you this sad" He says placing his hand on mine i look up at him.

"Because with chuck everything complicated i wonder if I've dodged a bullet or just lost the love of my life" I say chuckling

"I think you've dodged a bullet and when you know for sure here" He hands me his number and kisses my cheek

"Your stunning call me" He says walking away 

I walk inside and head up to a room just to clear my head privately i open a door and Serena and nate were inside so i shut it an went down to a room that was quite. then i saw it i wish i never ever had ever. one Lola one Blair and One Lonely Boy in a bed together the room was a mess i wanted to get the hell out of there i went home and slept

The next morning i woke up and get a gossip girl post.

Morning upper east siders after Nates Crazy Party shall we recap this Monday morning well our very own Q has landed herself a new man but what about poor chuck? Speaking of the poor our Lonely boy isn't regretting anything this morning though Queen B and Miss Lola might sometimes a three-way shouldn't include your social circle XOXO GOSSIP GIRL


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