let's pretend we're numb

14.5 baby shower and baby flowers

"uh huh mom I can't," I said I was still in my room "uhhhhhhh mmm mmmm" I groaned "it's ok the doctor is gonna be here soon," she said "mmmmmhmmmm ughhhh" I yelled squeezing tighter on Jahseh's hand "It's ok" she said I shook my head "mhm" I hummed closing my eyes I could tell Jahseh was a bit scared the look on his face gave it away my mom played with my hair while holding my hand Myra burst through the door "she's here" Myra said "oh god" I said "ughhhhh" I yelled Jahseh squeezed my hand by now I was sweating I was tired in pain and wanting to have this baby "mmmhmmm Ok um hand me that right there" I said pointing to my shirt he got up and gave it to me I wiped the sweat off of me cuz I was sweating I held onto Jahs hand he played with my hair I was more relaxed and calm the dr. DeLuca came in "alright now let's get this show on the road I hope you don't mind I brought my crew," she said "alright Im gonna need you to breath ok," she said I nodded and breathed in and out "alright now we're gonna see if you even are ready to give birth you are 8 months correct" she said I nodded "yes" I said "mhmmmm" I groaned "alright calm down... boeky get me the ultrasound and doctor Arizona robins" she said "ughhhh" I yelled "ok ok 1...2...3" she said squirting the gel on my stomach " Alright what seems to be the problem her...whoa ok" she said looking at me I chuckled "hmmm I get that it's not what you see on the regula- ah but I need you to give me an epidural because right now I feel like Im going to explode" I said breathing in-between "mhmm let's look at your chart and I'll see" she said "ok so good news your not in active labor and what your feeling now is the baby moving down and getting in position to come out so this is gonna be 10x worse during labor but I will check with your pediatrition to see if  you are allergic to any of the medicines in epidurels ok" she said "Mhmmmm" I groaned "so my water broke but im not in labor is what your- mhmm saying" I said she nodded "fuck me" I mumbled "alright so what I want you to do for the rest of this last trimester is be very active move around walk, uh sexual contact is appropriate" she said I saw jahseh smirk "nope" I said "well thank you, uh If you excuse me im gonna enjoy not giving birth thank you Im sorry to wai- mhm waist your time" I said she nodded "it's all good call me whenever" she said I nodded "welp help me up" I said Jah helped me up "well if that shits gonna hurt ten times worse you gon need an epidural" Jah I smiled we walked downstairs "is my angel here" my mom said "uh no actually im not in active labor but I need to be active sooo" I said she nodded "Just know we're being prepared" I said cleo laughed "Is there still pain" myra asked "ion know is your mom still a ho- no" I said "oof bad mood swings" Chrissy said I sat down ok now only a week left to go "ok so baby showers tomorrow uh what else" I said cleo looked up from her phone "that's it then your birth" she said I nodded "alrtight well everyone is staying the night right" I said they nodded "ok well mhmm Uh im gonna go clean up my crap oh well I didn't shit on the floor but yeah" I said walking upstairs I grabbed a towel and everything and wiped the floor and scrubbed it gosh I took my sheets off and all my other crap threw it in the washer and got new stuff I put it on my bed and then took my clothes off and got in the shower I washed my hair and half my body because I can't bend down so I tried but I couldn't I got out of the shower did my routine and got dressed I looked at my tattoo in the mirror I was gonna have to cover it up once the baby got here or maybe she/he'd like it Ion know hopefully my angel does but I got dressed in this