Poems

One year

365 days of hoping
we would find a way of living, coping
in the first few months, nothing got better
as we couldn't find a bit of shelter
it seemed as if the world had stopped turning
nothing made sense and our hearts were burning
as time passed, our hearts began to settle
they soon became less like screaming kettles
even so, the pain was always still there
at the mention of his name, wounds would tear
no stitches would stop the tears from flowing
for, we lived our every hour knowing
he was gone and nothing would bring him back
one year has passed and our hearts are still cracked
though the pain is less and growing weaker
and more a whisper than a loud speaker
still, sometimes, it bellows in the quiet
deafening in the silence, it riots
all we can do is survive through the grief
as we know the life lived was all too brief
leaving behind melodies, memories
that had once taken away all worries
he has left a star-sized hole in our hearts
but we shouldn't let it tear us apart
we should keep going, even though it hurts
the clocks will keep turning, so will the earth
so let's join with the sun and rise again
til the day our knees will no longer bend

note: This is a tribute to SHINee's Jonghyun, who committed suicide a year ago on this day.