My Brother's Band || Ashton Irwin

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{Maddie}

"Maddie..." I looked up at Ashton. Talking in his sleep. I smiled and buried my face in his chest. God how I wanted to go to sleep. My mind was racing with thoughts of Michael, Calum, Ashton, everyone. I kept telling myself I need to go now and talk to Michael but I was back in Ashton's arms and I couldn't bring myself to get up. I shifted and Ashton spoke, "Babe, go to sleep." "Ashton, I can't." I pulled out of his arms and sat up against the head board. "What's wrong?" He sat up and looked at me. "I can't stop thinking about Michael." "Maddie-" "Ashton. Stop. I am technically still dating Michael an-" He groaned, "Can we not talk about Michael?" I let out a slight laugh. "What?" "Nothing..." I mumbled. "No, tell me. What's so funny?" I finally looked up at him, a smug look on his face, "The fact that you don't realize that when you cheated on me Michael was who comforted me." "Wow." "Wow, what?" "You think just because Michael was there for once means he's the 'one'." "Are we gonna do this again?" "I don't know." "Why do we fight? We used to never fight." "Yeah, people change," He messed with the sheet and kept his gaze away from me. "No kidding." "What happened?" He suddenly looked at me. "W-What do you mean?" "What happened to us? We could get over anything together..." "No. That was not what went on." "Then what went on?" "You fucked up and I was dumb enough to give you a second chance." "Can we please not?" "Yeah." I leaned my head back and felt tears well up in my eyes. "I miss you," He choked out, clearly in the same condition as me. I took his hand in mine, not looking at him, "I miss you, too." "I can't go anywhere without thinking of you." I swallowed hard. "I go in the living room and I remember the time we got black-out drunk with Annie, and the guys." I laughed. He laughed as he continued talking, "I go into the kitchen and I remember all the times you would sit on the counter in my shirt and rant about someone or something completely pointless and then I would kiss you and you'd forget what you were talking about." I bit my lip. "Then I'd come in here and remember all the times you told me you loved me before you fell asleep, in your sleep, when we were... ya' know." "I get it. I told you I loved you a lot." He laughed slightly, "I hope I told you I loved you just as much." "You did." "Good." I felt a few tears fall. "When did you ever stop loving me?" I choked out. He looked at me, "Who said I ever stopped?" I smiled trough my tears, "Well the fact that you cheated on me might have something to do with that." "Right...I never cheated on you." "Wow." "I'm being serious." "I knew you'd done some low things but this is..." "Maddie, I was so fucking drunk. I didn't even drive myself home...My friend did. You can ask him. I told you I was going to a bar but we just bought some liquor and took shots in his car until we got tired." "Then why did you say you slept with someone?" "I don't know. I just wanted to show you. You were yelling and I was upset and there was a lot of alcohol in my body." "So what your saying is that we broke up because you lied to show me that you were upset with me for yelling?" "Basically." "That's stupid." "Hey, we both know I'm not smart when I'm sober. Add alcohol to that and I become unbelievable stupid." "You are to smart. You just don't use your brain." "Aka stupid." I laughed and he let go of my hand. He wrapped his arm around my shoulder and pulled me closer to him. I laid my head in his shoulder and inhaled his scent, then I started crying. "What's wrong, babe?" "My bear doesn't smell like you anymore." He smiled and wrapped his other arm around me and kissed my forehead. "Bear." I whispered. "Hmm?" He leaned his head back, rubbing my back with his hand. "I love you." "I love you, too." He put his hand on my knee and I looked at it. "You have really long fingers." I mumbled, taking his hand in mine. He laughed a little, "I don't know what to respond to that with." "They're like unnaturally long." "Maybe mine are normal size and everyone else's are just unnaturally short." I laughed, "No." I glanced at the clock on the nightstand and sighed, "Ash. I need to go talk to Michael." He looked over at the clock and shook his head, "It's only 8 he won't be up." "Ashton. We can't avoid this." "I know..." I stood and tugged my shirt over my head and grabbed one of Ashton's shirts. I felt Ashton watching me and looked at him once I had his shirt on. "I missed seeing you in my clothes." I laughed and started to pull on my shorts. "Come here." Ash mumbled and sat on the edge of the bed. I walked over and straddled his waist, he looked up at me and leaned back on his right arm. "Wow, you're so beautiful..." I smiled and ran my fingers through his hair, "I need to go." He nodded and leaned in. Our lips met and we kissed for a few minutes until I pulled off, "Sorry...I just feel like I'm cheating..." "It's ok, go. Text me when you get there." "Ok, I will. I love you." "I love you more." I climbed in my car and called Cal as I back out of the driveway. "Hello?" "Hi, Cal!" "Really? It's like 8. I need to sleep for 4 more hours." "Whatever, is Michael at your house or..." "No he couldn't fall asleep so he went home...can I go back to sleep now?" "Yeah, love you." "Yeah, yeah. I love you, too and all that shit." He hung up and I hung a quick left headed to Michael's. I pulled into the driveway, jumped out of my car and ran to the front door. I walked right in the front door and fell onto the couch. Michael, who was already sitting on the couch, looked at me and laughed, "What's up with you?" "I spent the night with Ashton last night and I just realized how much I missed him." "Ok, then." "I'm sorry." "It's cool, it was stupid for us to date anyways. I don't know what I was even thinking. You...belong with Ashton. He loves you so much that he can barely function without you." "That's a lie." I laughed. "Well since we're back to being just best friends I can tell you that two nights ago I went over to Ashton's and he told me he barely sleeps anymore, he just lays around, and that he misses you like crazy." I pushed my hair behind my ear, "R-Really?" He nodded and turned back to the tv, "I barely slept last night I was so worried about you." "Why?" "When Cal told me that you'd been at Ashton's for two hours and then you weren't answering your phone I-I..." "You what?" I swallowed hard. "I honestly thought you'd killed yourself." He met my eyes. "Michael." "Yeah?" "I could never kill myself." "Maddie." "Michael I'm serious. I know what would happen. I'm all that Cal has left. I would take a bullet for Cal." "That wouldn't help you at all. Then he'd be alone again." "Well back to my point. If I killed myself I'm 80% sure Cal and Ash might kill themselves as well..." "Damn, straight." "What does that mean?" "You're so fucking right. Calum and Ashton couldn't live without you on this earth." I laid my head on Michael's shoulder, "I missed my best friend." I mumbled. He wrapped his arm around my shoulder and shifted his body. "I don't know what'd I do without you Michael." "I don't know what I'd do without tacos and milkshakes." I laughed, "Do you want to go get tacos and milkshakes?" He nodded, "Please?" "Yeah, yeah. You love me, and I'm the best, just get in the freaking car." He jumped up, grabbed his shoes and ran to my car.

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Sorry this was short but I haven't updated in forever and I just wanted to get something published so I'll try to update like every other weekend or something. I love y'all and I'm almost at 3k reads!! Vote, Comment, you know the drill.

-Maddie🍌