My Brother's Band || Ashton Irwin

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*TRIGGER WARNING*

{Maddie}

I stared at the tea in my mug.

'Where the fuck is he?'

I tugged the sleeves of Ashton's sweater over my hands and glanced around the kitchen. Ashton said he was going to hang out with some friends from high school and that'd he be home by 10. It's just past 11:30 and I was about to freak out. The door opened and I stood up knocking my chair onto the floor. Ashton slammed the door shut and stumbled into the kitchen, "Hey, babe." His speech was slurred and he looked so fucking drunk. "Ash." I crossed my arms over my chest. "What?" "You said you'd be home by 10." "What time is it?" "11:30" He shrugged, "Hey, shit happens, Honey." "Ashton." "What!?" I jumped a little at him yelling, "I was worried sick!! I tried to just go to sleep but in the back of my mind all I could think was that you were dead in a fucking ditch somewhere." "Well, I'm here now. You wanna fuck on the kitchen counter or something?" "No, Ashton." "Why not?" He stepped closer to me and tried to grab my hand, but I jerked it back. "I'm pissed off at you and you're acting like an asshole and that isn't helping me forgive you." "Wow." "Wow, what?" "I just said wow, babe, is there something wrong with that?!" "Why are you yelling at me?" I felt tears well up in my eyes. "Because you're being ridiculous." "Ash, if I did this you would be up the fucking wall. You'd be screaming at me, telling me I should've called you-" "Shut up." I closed my mouth and I felt a year fall. "It's a good thing I slept with your friend from school tonight." "W-What?" "Yeah, I think her name was Summer? But I don't remember." He smirked. I walked around him and he followed me, "Where are you going?" I felt a lump in my throat and grabbed my jacket and my phone. I stood in front of him, "I'm going to Calum's. I'll come by sometime tomorrow to get my stuff." He gave me a confused look, "W-Why?" "Because I'm breaking up with you." He turned pale realizing he fucked up. I wiped my tears with the back of my hand. "M-Maddie, I-" I stood up on my tip toes and pressed a soft kiss to his lips. I pulled off and looked at him, "Goodbye, Ashton." I backed away and walked to my car. I wasn't crying yet and I was hoping I could drive all the way to Calum's before I broke down. I pulled into Cal's driveway after what seemed like forever. I turned the car off and the tears started falling. I laid my head on the steering wheel and just cried. The door of my car opened, "Maddie?" He grabbed my arm and pulled me out of my car. "What's wrong? It's like midnight." I pulled on his shirt and cried for a good 5 minutes before I could even get a word out. "I b-broke up w-with Ashton." "C'mon, let's go inside." He basically carried me inside while I cried and cried and cried some more. He took me to my room and sat me on my bed, "I'm gonna go get something." He kissed my forehead. I waited until he was out of view and threw my jacket across the room. I crawled under the covers and Calum walked back in holding two tubs of ice cream, a spoon in each. He handed me one of them and crawled into bed next to me, "Do you wanna talk about it?" I shook my head, "No, but I'll give you 3 questions." "Why?" "He cheated. "Who?" "Some girl he thinks is named Summer." "How did you find out?" "He told me." "I know you said 3 questions, but what the fuck?" "He came home drunk and we fought for a second then he told me he was glad he slept with her and I walked out. Can we stop talking about it now?" He nodded and wrapped an arm around me, "What do you wanna do?" "I wanna eat my feelings." He laughed, "Other than that?" "I-I..." All I could think of was wanting to cuddle with Ashton. I felt a tear fall. "Maddie?" He looked down at me. "S-Sorry, I thought about...about..." I sat the ice cream down on the night stand and quickly walked to the bathroom. I leaned up against the door and wiped my nose with my sleeve. Ashton's scent filled my nose and I started crying again. "Maddie?" Cal softly knocked on the door. I moved away from the door and Cal walked in, "Maddie, please let's just watch a movie or something. I can't just sit here and watch you hurt like this. It hurts me. It takes me back to when dad died. And I worry about what you'll do if you're alone like this." "Cal, I'm not gonna kill myself." "That's not what I mean." He pushed my sleeves up to my elbows and looked at my arm. You could still faintly see the scars even though I stopped about two years ago. He ran his fingers over my skin and pulled me into a hug, wrapping his arms around my shoulders. "Maybe you should change." I nodded and pulled back. I walked into my room and tugged off Ashton's sweater, hanging it up in my closet by Ashton's section of things he'd left here. I ran my fingers over that fairly good sized section of clothes. I pulled my hand back quickly and pulled on my Nirvana shirt. Cal put in a movie which I had no intentions of watching and sat next to me again. We each finished our ice cream and I laid my head on his chest. "I love you, Calum." I mumbled. "I love you, too, Maddie."