her.

xxii

i thought i experienced it.

for a beautiful, fleeting moment,
i thought i'd found the one.

–which is so, so stupid at the age of 15
when you're desperately trying to find some meaning in your life because you're a hormonal teenager and school is too much and you feel like there's something so wrong about you and everyone else is just so right–

and i guess i was the one for a minute
but he found a better one afterwards.

i don't think i'm ever going to find a better one that him.
even though he replaced me
even though he treated me like shit
even though everyone says i deserve better:

i don't think i do.
i don't think anyone can replace that.