her.

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well now really when we go back into falling in love
and say, it's crazy.

falling.

you see?

we don't say
"rising into love".

there is in it, the idea of the fall.
and it goes back, as a matter of fact, to extremely fundamental things.

that
there is always a curious
tie at some point
between the fall
and the creation.

taking this ghastly risk
is the condition of there being life.

you see, for all
life is an act of faith
and an act of gamble.

the moment you take a step,
you do so on an act of faith

because you don't really know that the floor's not going to give under your feet.

the moment you take a journey,

what an act of faith.

the moment that you enter into any kind of human undertaking in relationship,

what an act of faith.

see, you've
given yourself up.

but this is the most powerful thing that can be done:

surrender.

see. and love
is an act of surrender to another person.

total
abandonment.
i give myself to you.
take me. do anything you like with me.

see.
so,
that's quite mad

because you see, it's letting things get out of control.

all sensible people keep things in control.
watch it,

watch it,

watch it.

security?
vigilance

watch it.

police? watch it.
guards? watch it.

(who's going to watch the guards?)

so,
actually, therefore,
the course of wisdom,
what is really sensible,

is to let go, is to commit oneself, to give oneself up

and that's quite mad.

so we come to the strange conclusion
that in madness lies sanity.