ANATOMY REVAMP.

21.

<Notes

october 23rd, 20XX at 01:21

JKD
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i have to get all my dumb bitch energy out now so i can write deep and cute shit so uh here goes

🤪🤠🤟i̷̭̙͉̩̇̆͝ ̸̰͕̒̄̾e̶̛̞̟̿̉͆͐a̶̢̎̅͘͘t̵̡̟̩͌̐̌̈́́ ̷̩́b̴̘͓͇͎̖̒̇̓ȃ̸̳͉̗̩̎̈́b̶̭̪̆́̍̕í̸͉̓̔ȅ̵̛̙͆͝s̸̘̯͈̀ 👁👅👁👶🦷👶

baby: goo goo ga ga (translation: say sike right now)

me: ȋ̴̞͉͇̀͜͠t̴͖̟̫͒͋̈ ̶͍̻̣͋̎̃̽͝i̶͔͔͊͐̓s̵̫̽̅ ̶͈̩̙̐̔t̷̘͍̯͍̩̓͆̌̍͝i̷̥̳̊͜m̵̜̀̈́ẹ̵̢̜͆̿͜ ̷̡̤͓̬̒̎̈́̏͝t̵̲͔̖̥̹̆͂̑͆͘o̸̳̦͈̓͗͜ͅ ̵̜̥̜̥̾͑̎͝͠ͅf̷̨͓̤̝͂ͅĕ̵͙̻͑̂̄a̸̻͔͚̩̙͝ṣ̸̜̒t̵͔͙̹̹̼̉ ̵̡͍̼̩͂̍̈́̏ 🦷👶👶🏻👶🏼👶🏽👶🏾👶🏿🦷🦍🦍

ok that's all. now we may start

huh, i guess starting is much harder than i thought. don't you hate starting anything that's supposed to be significant? like there's kind of this immense pressure to have a good ass introduction to whatever this masterpiece is going to be, or else it won't be worth anybody's time? i don't know. maybe you don't understand because you're a painter and you guys sort of just dive into anything head first without a second thought. or maybe not, i don't know much about painting, but that's just how it looks from the outside. i'm an illustrator, so i can't relate to that sort of style personally. i need guidelines. making guidelines with writing is harder, though. when writing, i've always been told to start with the conclusion or the bulk and then come back to the introduction, but that's honestly for disorganised pussies. i jot down key points to hit, then i go for it. free fall. maybe that's why i suck at writing.

seriously, if i were to start with the conclusion of this "story", it would be us getting married or some shit. but isn't that too much for someone i just met? i feel like one of those stereotyped u-haul lesbians just thinking about the idea of marriage with someone i've only met once. so i'm sticking to my suckish ways of writing.

sorry, this is an unnecessary and highly complicated start to a very simple diary entry. all i wanted to start with was just saying hello to you and hopping right in. i didn't want to defend my writing style like you came and attacked it. way to overcomplicate and overthink, jungkook!

so HELLO, i decided i wanted to write out little diary (diary? diary sounds like something a 12 year old girl would have...) entries for every time me and you, my dream art boy spend time together (i think calling you my "dream art boy" does make this a diary, i am such a 12 year old girl). i know it's so stupid, but i feel like maybe, MAYBE we have something here? i'll get into it a little bit later, but i really feel like we hit it off and this is the beginning of something big. or whatever.

just because i feel like this will be so significant, i really wanted to document all of our interactions, so one day long long from now, if we're still in contact, i can print out all of these notes documents and show you everything i thought and felt every time we spent time together. it's sappy, i know, but i wish i did this with my friend, taehyung. aka stripper model boy, if you still remember him when you get these. there's so many emotions i've felt over all of our years of friendship that i wish i shared with him but i didn't because they disappeared into the abyss of consciousness. and this sort of special-ness i'm feeling at the beginning of this new relationship i'm feeling with you is the same i felt with taehyung, so i'm doing it with you, min, just in case this does end up in marriage or something dumb like that.

oh yeah, i'm pretty sure your name is min. i asked you what i should call you when i first walked up to you, and you said "just min is fine," so i guess just min it is.