Rain Thoughts

Certainty

A Story

last night,
i saw you.
so clear, you were standing there,
under the pouring rain.
you were standing there,
with your gray jacket, and your sweet smile.
but, oh, i hate to see that smile again,

and i stood there,
hoping you wouldn't come closer,
but you did.

i still remember that musk scent,
came from you,
that curls,
still remember everything,
every details, every move.

"hi" you greeted,
"oh, hey" i replied, nervously.
"what a coincidence!" you giggled.
"i know" i said, with a little smile.

"why you're here?" i asked.
he raised his shoulders, "no idea"
"hey, look, i'm really sorry about what i did"
he said, with sad eyes.
"it's fine, don't be sorry" i replied, with a simple smile
"you can hate me now"
he declared.
"i don't want to hate you, not in every possible way"
i whispered.

he sat next to me.
"i broke you, don't you want to do the same?" he asked suddenly.
"i don't want to live to break each other, it's pathetic, what's the point?" i stuttered.

"look, we can't keep living like this, how can i love when you're not? why we keep running with no certainty?"
i asked, while i looked deep into his eyes,
those eyes that i never want to lose.

he sighed, i can felt the pain inside him.
"i miss you" he explained.
"me either" i replied, and then i threw my head down.

"but i promised myself, what's past is past, i've dealt with it." i explained, my eyes were blurry

he didn't replied.

i stood up, held his hand one last time,
"goodbye" i said,
i felt my veins stop flowing
then i started to walk away.

"but, are we good?" he mumbled.
"we are" i replied, i threw a smile at him.
a sincere one.

i walked on a pavement, i felt the rain started to wash my pain away,
i exhaled,
freely,
this is for the best, isn't it?