✔️ Little Sunshine Boy (Seungjin)

eighteen✖️hyunjin

On the way home from school, I just broke down.

I honestly don't know why. I think all the things that were going on lately were just really getting to me; the feud with my gang, Kris, Seungmin's fucking existence, my parents... everything was building up on top of one another and I could feel the tension rising. It would eventually get so bad that I would just shatter.

So I guess you could consider me crying on a curb on my way home from school a crack. Not a break so much, not a complete shatter, just a crack. Because there was definitely more emotions I was going to go through because I'm an angsty fucking teen.

I just sat there and cried for a while, feeling all that pent up anger come out in the form of tears.

And then I heard a door shut and my head shot up. I didn't need anyone seeing me cry, I had a reputation to retain. So I wiped my eyes so damn quickly, sniffling gently and trying my best to hide the fact that I was sobbing like a stupid fucking crybaby. I turned around, looking for the source of the shut door and saw none other than Kim Seungmin.

I growled under my breath, but said nothing when he stood behind me, looking at me quite awkwardly.

"L-Listen... I know you don't like me.. and I really don't know why... b-but... as much as I don't really like you either, I don't like to see people cry. Especially on the curb in front of my house," he says sarcastically and I sigh softly.

"I don't know what you're talking about, sunshine boy. I wasn't crying," I lie, and it's a horrible lie. He saw me and I don't know why the hell I was trying to act like I wasn't. My heart was telling me to just accept his sympathy, but my brain was telling me to retain my reputation as this hardass that, in all honesty, I really wasn't.

I'm so fucking fed up with this heart versus brain bullshit.

"Cut the crap, Hwang. And can you stop being a jerk for like two seconds?! I'm trying to help and you're nothing but rude to me!"

My blood pressure skyrocketed and I felt my face heat up. Very quickly, I stood and turned around to face him, my eyes narrowed as I glared into his eyes.

"It's because you get to experience the one thing that I want more than anything. And you get to experience it all the fucking time! Happiness. All I want is to be happy and you're soaking up all the goddamn joy this world has to offer. Newsflash, other people exist too," I retorted and he was taken aback for a second before responding just as heatedly.

"First of all, I'm not happy all the time, Hyunjin. I often get depressed as fuck because of people like you, people who have nothing better to do than make everyone's life a living hell. People who find joy in making other's feel pain. Jerks like you. And it hasn't been easy moving, I miss my friends, I miss my house, I miss my town, but nobody feels remorse for me, so why in the hell should I feel remorse for you? Because I don't."

That hit me a little harshly. He shouldn't feel remorse for me, I don't want that shit. I just... I just want someone to make me feel happy, to be there for me when I fall, to pick up the little pieces of my shattered fucking heart and put me back together again.

But no one was willing to do that.

I walked away.

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A/N:

Stay Cool 😎

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