Broken Crayons Still Color

"Life Support"

I sat in the corner of the room

Watching as my chest heave in and out

The machines connected to my body

Screech loudly in the quiet room

The rain poured in the background

I could hear it's pit pat against the window seal

Days and weeks have past since the accident

People such as family and freinds enter the room here and there

Saying there silent goodbyes and giving their last kisses

For the end must be near even if I haven't gave it permission

But oddly enough there was something keeping me from ending it sooner

I'm not quite sure why or what it is

Until slowly it came to me one day

She hasn't came by to visit

I'm surpise that out of all the people

She hasn't came at least once or twice

Then again I don't blame her

If she saw how awful I look it would break her soul

My heart drop and I almost wanted to cry until I heard the door slowly creep open

My head snap back up and I watch as she enter the room

Her blonde hair was curled down to her shoulders

She wore a casual sweater with jeans and a pair of boots

And like I predicted

She took one glance at my face and instantly her beautiful blue eyes swelled up in tears

She set her purse down and took a seat next to my bed side

I moved closer and sat down in the chair on the opposite side of her

She stroke my tangled brown hair

And gently touch the bandages wrap around my wrists

She choke back a sob and tried to recover herself

This was one of the hardest things she has ever had to do

"Baby" She quietly whispered "Why didn't you call me?"

I felt myself sank down in my chair

I never meant to hurt her in this way

Tears began to fall from her face

Like the rain that poured outside from the sky

Without hestiation, she carefully moved herself on the bed

And took my fragile body into her warm arms

She hug me tightly to her and cried some more

"Oh honey why?" She wonder

I gulp down a big lump in my throat "I'm so sorry"

She took her small hands and rested them on my cheeks

Although my eyes were close she still stared into them

As if I was going to wake up at any given moment

She rub my cheek with her thumb

And then laid a gentle kiss upon my forehead

"I love you so much baby"

I love you too

I only wish that I was still here to tell you that

I felt a small sob errupt from my chest

And I wanted to pound my fists into the wall

I can't believe I did this to her

We were not realted in anyway

We did not share DNA

But she loved me like family

And cared for me as her own

She didn't just lose some random kid she use to know

She lost her daughter

She must of held me in her arms for what seem like hours

She quietly talk about old memories and even new ones

I listen closely and savoured the sound of her sweet loving voice

She was generous and took the time to fix my hair

Wipe away the stain mascara down my cheeks from that night

And even help the nurse change out my old bandages

She was making sure to take care of her baby one last time

Her kindess and love for me was just unstopable

When it was time for her to go

We were both crying because neither one was ready to let go 

I've said many goodbyes to her in the past and they weren't easy

Espically this one

She kiss my forehead one last time

Held my already cold hand

As she spoke her final words

"Baby I love you and I will miss you so much"

She began to cry again

"You have brighten my world in ways you don't even know"

With that she let go of my hand although I know she didn't want to

She pick up her purse and slowly walk to the door

She blew one more kiss and then left

I could still hear her tears outside in the hallway

I wanted to scream her name and run to her

But my body laid still and I was completely numb

All I could make out was a

"I love you back"

Before sitting back down in my chair

And finally

I was able to let go now..