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*21*

HAPPY NEW YEARS EVERYONE. WARNING THIS CHAPTER WILL HAVE A PICTURE OF A SUICIDE ATTEMPT. THIS BOOK DOES DEAL WITH SUICIDE BTW. If you are in urge of suicide! Reach out to me on here or instagram: undyne21. LONG CHAPTER BTW

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Zero_sigh: Jude we need to talk

Zero_sigh: I'm sorry alright, you mean so much to me

Zero_sigh: I have trust issues

Zero_sigh: I know you are reading my messages. I just want to tell you, I love you so much

Zero_sigh: thank you for everything. Happy New Years Jude

Jude_smile: happy New Years to you too Zero

Zero_sigh: I have feelings for you Jude. I'm so sorry

Jude_smile: yea I know. Lionel send me a screenshot of your post

Zero_sigh. I'm sorry for everything

Jude_smile: it's fine. I like you too zero. But, you hurt me so I don't know if I can trust you again

Zero_sigh: I understand

Jude_smile: thanks for understanding ♥️

Zero_sigh: yea of course

Jude_smile: I gotta go. Noah invited Lionel to the devils meeting

Zero_sigh: of course, I understand. Have fun

Jude_smile: thank you

Zero_sigh: ur welcome

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You let him hurt, you made him depressed, you made him cry, I had to cut because of a mistake I made

I knew everything I did was wrong. I cared so much about him but all I do every time is hurting and failing. Jude, made me happy and feel and try new things. He was so perfect and amazing but I knew everything was going to fail at some point in our relationship. I was wronged when I broke up with him. He was deeply in love with me until we broke up. I try so hard not to be hurt but I keep on failing because he means everything to me.

I never felt like this before until the break up. He's a wonderful guy. I don't understand why I had to break up with him, but I did. He loved Noah but not at the time when he was in a relationship with him. I played Jude, and he didn't played Noah. I shouldn't never played him or texted him. He didn't deserve to know me. He had people who loved him while I didn't

I looked at my arm from the past well, some when I was younger and some from recent after the break up. When I was younger, it took place at when I was put into foster care. I still get nightmares and flashbacks of that day. I just wish I could do better but I can't at all. I'm sorry Jude for everything to be honest.

(Zero's arm. Picture from the web)