*Psychological scenes.
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Cat:
I run without looking back, getting as far away as I can. Maybe this time I will be able to not turn back. Who am I kidding, I'm addicted to him, I can't stand to be away from him for more than a day. I'm gonna end up going back whether I like it or not. But in the meantime, the forest consumes me and I became one with nature, despite my internal man-made structures, despite the insult I am to it as both a mutant and a cyborg. Nature is somehow able to see past that and bring out my real self, it lets me do whatever I want, it's my home, my Goddess.
I slow down to a walk and observe the artwork around me. The sounds, the smells, the colors... the freedom. I won't hunt today, I'll just walk.
Oscar doesn't see this, no one does. Jay used to assure me that he knew exactly what I was talking about, but when I suggested to run away he insisted we needed our society, our family. They're all too human to understand this, and I'm too wild to understand any of their customs.
Like, we are a pack but we have no alpha, we have positions but the priorities are given to the weakest. Everyone has their role, their place, but I never feel like I fit in. When I arrived everyone wore clothes, even Oscar. I refused them and slowly others started doing the same.
"I can't believe you're going out with him again. Have you forgotten about me?" Jay says matching my pace, and dragging me out of my thoughts.
"It's been seven years, don't you think you could let me move on?" I say trying to ignore him. I know he's not real, but he feels very real, they all do.
"Yeah, I think you should actually, but from love in general. April already broke your heart, I'm just trying to protect you from making the same mistake twice." He says.
"Hey! I did nothing, ok? I never gave you any indication that I might return your feelings, don't blame me." April say walking on my other side.
"True, sort of. And I think this'd be the third time I make this mistake." I say answering both of them. "Besides, this is the farthest I've gotten with anyone, might as well give it a shot." I shrug.
"Only because you wouldn't even let me kiss you!" Jacob says in a defensive way.
"I was twelve, you were seventeen. No one would had been ok with that." I say
"We could had kept it a secret, you're good with those." He says with a smirk.
"I wasn't ready. Honestly, I'm not sure I'm ready now." I say looking down. "Anyway, what are you doing here? I thought you were gone for good." I ask.
"Dunno, you tell me." April shrugs.
"Why did you try to fight me the other day?" I ask Jay.
"Dunno." He shrugs as well. We keep walking in silence, in no specific direction. "Do you really think he's the right choice?" Jay asks out of nowhere.
"Maybe? He manages to keep you away, well, not you two, but everyone else is forgotten when I'm with him." I explain. I really hope mentioning it doesn't somehow invite them to come, but the shivers through my spine crush those hopes almost instantly.
I change direction, hoping to get back to Oscar before they get to me. "What do you think of him? Do you mind it that I'm trying to recover?" I ask although I'm just doing it to get my thoughts busy.
"I've always wanted you to be happy, and I wouldn't mind to have you as my sister-in-law. Go for it." April says with a smile. I look at Jay waiting for his answer.
"I think you should be careful, but I'm happy for you, although I still wish that it was me. Guess I left too early." He says and I smile, thanking him for understanding.
My smile fades when my eyes land on her. Her young fur stained with blood and her empty eyes drilling a hole of guilt through my brain. "Carol...." I say in a whisper as I step back. I hit something behind me and I turn around to find my mother's body hanging from a tree. No, this isn't real, it's not happening.
Someone calls my name. Jay. He looks at me apologetically as he holds the bullet wound on his abdomen. "I'm sorry." Someone says and I'm not sure if it's him or me. He collapses before my eyes.
I try to run away but the path is blocked by April's disfigured body. This isn't real. I tell myself. But it did happen. A voice reminds me.
I close my eyes and I start running. I need Oscar, I need him now. I hit a tree and fall to the ground, but I get back up and continue running, I can't risk them catching up to me.
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Free yet trapped
Romance"Just tell me already!", he says impatiently though still with a smile. "Fine!", I mutter irritated. "They did a bet over when we were getting back together." As soon as I say that I question why on earth I didn't lie, then again, Oscar knows when...
