Free yet trapped

Chapter 8: Broken doors

    Cat:

I'm sitting on the window sill of my room when I hear the clicking noise of the main door. Well, at least that way someone can pull my attention from Oscar and what happened earlier. I can't afford to lose him, so I can't afford to love him. Everyone I ever loved is dead now, I can't let that happen to him as well. I wish I could tell him, but I don't really want to tell him that I've been in love with two of his siblings and that they've both died because of that.

I shake my head as I walk towards the door of the room, well what's left of it. Oscar and the others tried to lock me in here one time I went savage and I destroyed the door, then I jumped through the window when I saw that I was greatly outnumbered, at least that's what they told me, I never remember anything of what I do while I'm savage, although sometimes I get vague memories of killing people in my dreams, that's why I don't like sleeping after going savage, I'd rather not know.

I can already tell that whoever it is invading my territory is a werewolf. Great, I don't feel like talking to Oscar right now and it couldn't be any other werewolf. I breathe in, preparing myself for the conversation. I really hope he doesn't bring up what happened earlier, I don't like keeping things from him and I don't want him to think it's just my paranoia, everyone says that, but I don't believe it, it happened twice before, and I don't want to risk it a third time.

I stand on the door way expecting to find Oscar, but instead I find his dark coffee eyes, accusing me for not being able to take my revenge, the one I promised to him, to both of them. The one I promised to my entire family, starting with my sister Carolina when I was just six as she died in my arms, but the first one I really meant was his, Jacob. And he's standing at the other side of the corridor, looking at me with disgust.

Why is he here? How is he here? I thought he was dead! Why did he come now? All those questions need answers, but I just want to hug him, to kiss him like the first time. I can tell by his expression that he doesn't feel the same way, he isn't happy to see me, nor is he here for a peaceful reunion. He growls at me, daring me into a fight, a real one, not the ones we used to play when we were little.

I don't answer to that, so he insists, growling louder this time while showing his sharp canines aggressively, not in a smile like he used to, a smile only for me, which belonged to me. Realization hits me, he doesn't love me anymore, he's here to fight, and fight he will get. I look at him with hatred as I tell myself that this isn't the Jay I knew, I can't let past feeling take a hold of me now.

I close my eyes and breathe deeply. I need to let go of the past connections I had with him. I need to forget I loved him.

I open my eyes but Jacob is nowhere to be seen, instead in his place is Oscar, looking at me with concern as he approaches me carefully. I look around, alert for any sings of Jay, but it's like he wasn't even here, which means...

Oh no, not this again.