Dimples

Chapter 14

Boo. You guys didn't hit the goal. Oh well. Happy Sunday! On the side is a picture of Liam Payne being his amazing self. I'm not going to update again until I get 300 reads and 30 votes so try to hit that goal please. Thanks. Love you babes!
~outofbreath27

My body is numb as I lie in this hospital bed for the last time this week. I haven't talked to anyone all week even though everybody, but Ashton, has pressured me to talk to them. The miscarriage left my body weak so I have been sleeping but when I'm not going through nightmare after nightmare, I am staring at nothing while Ashton runs his thumb across the top of my hand. He is the only one whose been allowed to touch me. I pull away from anyone else.

I don't know what to do anymore. Just as I was getting used to the idea of having a child at 17, she's ripped away from me. I can't believe it was actually going to be a girl. My little girl. I was going to have a daughter.

As if I was just told the news, I break. The news finally hits me head on and I find myself sobbing so hard that I can barely breathe, waking up Ashton who was in the chair next to my bed.

"It's okay." He comforts and hugs me tight against his chest. I hold myself to him as I let out heart wrenching sobs.

"I lost her!" I cry out through tears. "Just when I was getting used to the idea, she's taken from me! Why?" I ask nobody. "I don't want to be here anymore! I'm done with this life! Too many things have happened! I give up!" I finally admit as I cry. Ashton doesn't say anything as I rant. I hit my hands on his chest a couple of times but can already feel myself calming down. "I give up." I whimper to him as the last of my tears fall. I hold him close to me long after the tears stop.

"Scoot over." He demands softly. Without moving from his arms, I move over and he slides under the blankets with me. He pulls me away from his chest to look at me. He traces his hand down my face so that his hand ends up cupping my cheek. He slowly leans in and gives me a short kiss before pulling back to look me in the eyes. "Don't give up." He pleads softly. "You have so much of your life ahead of you." He tells me. I nod my head but don't say anything."Go to sleep. I'll wake you up when it's time to leave." He says and gives me another short kiss. I close my eyes and the smell of him along with his heartbeat almost immediately put me to sleep.

*Dream Starts*

"I love you and I don't want to lose you. I've lost too many things in my life and I'm so sick of losing things. I refuse to lose you too Ashton." I say to him as tears run down my face. He starts shaking his head slowly and I have to look away to stop my heart from breaking. "You know, Luke told me you would never give up on me. And I believed him because I knew and trusted him and he knew and trusted you. I guess he didn't know you that well." I finish before I turn on my heel and walk away from.

"I'm sorry." I hear him whisper before I walk out the door.

*Dream Ends*

I wake up slowly and when I do I find Josh coming into the room. When he sees me awake he gives me a smile and I try to give him one back but it probably turns into a grimace.

"Good morning." Josh greets. I sit up slowly so I don't wake up Ashton who has one arm under his head and the other draped across my lap.

"Hi." I whisper back. He looks surprised that I replied but quickly hides it.

"So you're getting out today." He states and I nod. "I was wondering if you wanted to get some ice cream or something on the way back to the hotel."

"Sure." I try to smile again but it doesn't work.

"You know, that's the first time he's slept more than a few hours this week." He points to Ashton and I look down suddenly feeling bad that I screwed up his sleeping schedule. When I look down, he looks so peaceful. His curls are covering his face some so I brush them back to see his face better. The door opening again makes me look up as Luke walks in.