Hurt (Kellic) ON HOLD

Pain

We're smiling but we're so close to tears

(Kellin's POV)

The disaster of yesterday is still fresh in my head. How am I supposed to keep Vic out of my personal life if he saw me so beaten up and bloody. He obviously didn't believe my excuse about falling and has questions. It's simply a matter of time before he gets nosey and tries to figure out what's happening.

I can't let him know because he will overreact to what is happening. Just because Daniel hits me doesn't mean it's the worst thing. I deserve it, and he doesn't do it unless he has to, I drive him into being so angry that he has to hit me.

Even though those thoughts are continuously plaguing my mind, more pressing thoughts also clank around in my brain.

Daniel doesn't like Vic, so why do I like him?

I should listen to Daniel, he's looked out for me this long, why would he be wrong about Vic?

"Kellin?" Vic says shaking me out of my head.

I realize I'm staring into my open locker, for god knows how long.

"Yes?" I say, turning and shutting the locker to look at Vic. He still has that worried look on his face and I want to yell at him, scream that he doesn't have to worry about me.

I don't do that.

"Want to come over after school today?" He asks, a hopeful look replacing the worried one and I exhale, relaxing slightly.

"I don't know." I say, looking around, because if Daniel comes looking for me and I'm not here, I'm in trouble.

"Please?" He whines, and I sigh, making one last look around for Daniel.

"Sure," I say, not seeing him, but decide that I still need to be careful. "Which way are we headed?"

He smiles in excitement reaching out to lead the way, but my brain takes over causing me to take a step back into the lockers in fear.

I open my eyes only to see the frown that is now on his face, I lower my hands from the defensive position they were in, feeling even more afraid.

"Sorry," I rush out, terrified he might actually hit me this time. "I'm sorry, it was an accident."

"It's okay," he says, panicking slightly at how my breathing was becoming more sporadic and how I began to shake. "Really, it's not a big deal."

He moves his hand out to comfort me but then moves it back hesitantly, probably thinking it would make this worse.

"Are you okay?" He asks, worry etched on his face.

I make a split second decision to run.

A shooting pain runs through my body and my knees shake as I go, but I don't dare stop. My breathing spirals more and more out of control as my speed increases to a hobbled sprint.

I look back once I reach home, seeing that Kellin didn't chase after me, and sighing in relief. I take my phone out of my pocket to check the time, seeing that Vic sent a text.

'I'm sorry I'm pushing things, I just want to help'

An anger rages through me at this, I quickly text him back then throw down my phone angrily at my bed.

(Vic's POV)

'I don't need your help, leave me alone'

My heart breaks slightly at the text. How could he not need my help? Someone is hurting him, why doesn't he want me to help him?

"Hey Vic, where's Kellin? I thought you said he was coming with us?" Mike asks me as he sees me in the hallway.

"He was coming." I say looking away from Mike. "I fucked up."

"How did you fuck up?" Mike asks me as we begin walking towards the exit. "And why were you just standing here at Kellin's locker, school ended like 20 minutes ago."

"I scared him." I start, pausing at Mike's confused gaze. "He thought I was going to hit him. I asked him if he was okay after, and maybe I was prying, but he just ran."

"Oh." Mike says, biting his lip in thought.

"Then I texted him this." I said showing him my phone and mine and Kellin's texts.

"What do you think he means by leave him alone?"

"I don't know Mike, I don't know."

(Kellin's POV)

"Why the fuck did you leave school without me? Did I say you could go alone?" Daniel yells at me as I open my front door to him.

I cower in fear at his words, knowing nothing good will happen from this. But it was my fault, if I had waited, none of this would have happened.

He doesn't even say anything to me, he only shoves me back, closing the door as I stumble to the ground. After the door is closed he picks me up by my shirt collar, slaps me hard across the face, then pulls me in to a kiss. The kiss is passionate and angry and after a minute of the kiss he slaps me again, harder, causing me to gasp in pain allowing him to forcefully shove his tongue in my mouth. 

His one hand moves to my hip, holding it too tight to be comfortable, and his other hand moves from my collar to my throat. He backs me to the wall, breaking the kiss and putting both hands around my throat. I start choking and sputtering, black spots teasing my vision.

"Learn to fucking listen to me, and stop hanging out with that boy." He says, voice full of venom, still gripping my throat.

Right as I feel as if I cannot stay awake another moment he lets go and I fall to the floor gasping for breath.

"Let's watch a film." He announces, grabbing my hand and dragging me to my living room.

I stay silent the entire film, enjoying Daniel's presence.