Part Two

19

💥Jay's Point of View

I calmly and patiently waited in the restaurant for Sephora and Chanel. I was going crazy over the weekend and I wanted my girls back home with me. Only God knew what Beyoncé was telling those girls and I knew she was after seeking custody of Bella and Blue.
I fucked up when I said what I said to Bey and I regretted it. It was the first thing that came to my mind and in the heat of the moment it came out. There were some situations where I could get the girls under control because I was their only parent, but I didn't want it to seem like I was happier as a lone parent because I wasn't. Raising three girls as a man was hard because I hard to be their mother and go through certain female experiences that I had no in-depth knowledge of like menstruations and bras. She picked up my calls with the mindset that it was about the girls but when I tried to apologise she'd hang up every time. I also sent her messages but she left me on read every time too. We only 'got along' for less than twenty four hours before we were back to hating each other's last nerves.

Now back to the other side of my life. Sephora was angry at me because of how Beyoncé and the girls acted in Mr Oakley's office but I had nothing to do with that (I was just as confused) and she knew how Bey was in high school so she couldn't have even been that surprised that she'd pull that off and drag the girls into it. I still wanted to be with Sephora so my mission was to get back with her and bring her back home. The downside was that if she did come back home, hell hath no fury like that of Beyoncé Knowles-Carter, Gloria Carter, Mirabelle Carter and Blue Carter. It would be like asking for a living nightmare because I'd never hear the end of it. I wanted to be with Sephora but I also wanted to be with Beyoncé and I was plain ass confused.

I looked up from my phone and watched the two come in at exactly 6pm on the point- on time. Neither of them looked happy to be here but we needed to clear the air.

"Are y'all okay? I ordered some drinks for us,"I smiled as they sat opposite me.

"What is this Jay? I can barely look at you right now and I'm still mad at you,"Ora folded her arms.

"I just want my family back,"I tried to grab Ora's hand but she pulled away from me and Chanel rolled her eyes.

"We're still part of that? Wow, that's a shock. What happened to the Queen Bee and her three worker bees?"Chanel tilted her head.

"Don't talk about them like that Chanel. How could you say something like that to Bella? You're not naïve Chanel, you're smart enough to know what is going on and how my girls feel about the whole situation."

"I was angry. Bella always provokes me and I wanted her to feel bad,"she defended herself.

"That doesn't mean you should throw dirt on her finding out her mom isn't dead after a whole ten years. I would never expect that from you Chanel. What led up to that point?"

"Bella and I got into a heated argument in class. I'm not going to lie, I kinda started it because someone asked about you and Beyoncé and it annoyed me that everyone disregarded and forgot about my mom because the 'love of your life' is back. It was as if people were throwing dirt on my mom because she was there for you all this time and now she was just pushed into the shadow. Bella was bragging about you two getting together one day and that mom and I would be out of the house,"she wiped a tear.

"One thing you've got to understand is that...Bella lost her mom at a really young age. She was only five years old and all she knew was me and Bey as a happily married couple and we were. Of course when she sees that we're still married because Beyoncé isn't dead, she's going to want us to be together again and she's going to create a scenario for her that will comfort her when she's dealing with exams and all this stress. I understand that it'll frustrate you because you never saw us together and all you've seen is your mom and I together but my girls see the opposite. Blue included; although she was just a few days old, she doesn't have any recollections of her mom and us together so she's going to imagine what it would've been like. B.B. may think the same way as Bella because she was seven when Bey 'died' but they're all trying to recover from the situation so you have to give my girls time. Do you understand?"Chanel nodded as a waiter brought our drinks to us and handed Chanel her lemonade.

"I'm sorry Jay. I know you're disappointed in me, especially with what they said about me having sex and drinking in school,"Chanel wiped a tear.

"We'll talk about that another time because I don't want to put too much on you and we've all had a part to play in this chaos,"I wiped her tears as they fell and Ora smiled looking down. We heard distinctive laughs and looked through the window to see Beyoncé and the girls laughing as they walked across the street linking arms with each other. My heart ached because they barely called me through the weekend and my worst fear was losing them.

"You miss them don't you?"Ora pouted at me and I brushed it off.

"It's fine. They need to spend time with her anyway because it's only a matter of time before they're off to college and university. I've had way more time with them and their mom is back so now it's all about her. It's understandable, they've missed her a lot,"I sniffed feeling an aching pain in my throat.

"I know you love them with all of what's in you but I'm tired of fighting Jay. Fighting for their acceptance, fighting for your attention, fighting for your love. I shouldn't have to compete with your wife. I am present time, not her so I don't see why I should feel second best to her. Is there even a law that says something about undeceased spouses?"Ora shared.

"I just need some time to get everything together. You've seen Beyoncé coming for my businesses and she's not stopping."

"That doesn't mean you should sleep with her!"Ora shook her head.

"Isn't this my cue to leave?"Chanel spoke up.

"I know but my head is all over the place. Sephora I'm begging you, just give me some time. I'm still getting married to you. I just need to get the girls settled before I can divorce her,"I knew it was a reach saying that I was divorcing Beyoncé but I couldn't lose Sephora. I was afraid of losing anything and everything. I couldn't make up my mind but it seemed like Bey was officially done with me and she didn't want to be married to me anymore.