Part Two

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🐝Beyoncé's Point of View

I hung up the phone from a long conversation with my lawyers and placed my iPhone on the table. I had decided that I couldn't keep Jay's share of the business and own the building to Mama's hair salon and expect our relationships to improve. I did those things out of anger and I couldn't keep them anymore because I wasn't angry and I was acting impulsively.

The girls were back in school and they either had exams like B.B. or little tests like Bella and Blue. Jay and I were spending less time with each other and it was a change from spending a week down in the Bahamas together but I knew he had to do what he had to do. The extra time I had made me return to the studios to continue making music. I did produce a few songs before we went to the Bahamas for B.B.'s birthday but I wasn't serious on putting out a whole album. I mean, I wasn't saying no but it wasn't my main goal at this point and it was slowly helping me get my feelings and emotions out about my current situation.

"Aye Bey, check this out,"TyTy caught my attention. He played over the song and I bopped my head admiring what we had produced.

"I love it,"I cheesed.

"I'm telling you, you got to put an album out. If you have songs like this on your album then it'll break the charts. This will be the ultimate comeback album. The greatest of all albums and all comeback albums,"he urged me and I laughed at his overdramatising.

"TyTy I don't know. I'm nervous about doing a whole album,"I confessed.

"Alright, let's have a talk,"he rolled his wheelie chair to my side and put his glasses on. "So what seems to be the case Mrs Carter?"he clasped his hands and I laughed.

"You tripping TyTy,"I held my stomach and he chuckled.

"So what's really the issue? Spill,"TyTy was a long time friend of mine and Jay and I trusted him a lot. He was one of the only people in the industry I could bet would never turn on us. Not only was he Jay's best friend but he was the girls' godfather so he was like a brother to me.

"These songs are my raw emotions. Putting them out there would be like opening up myself to the whole world and I don't know if I'm ready for that yet. I'm still tryna open up to my my family,"I told him.

"But this is all part of a healing process right?"he confirmed and I nodded. "So why not? You've written about three songs and so far they're all good. Maybe putting all your songs would be a good idea because it'd be like you're letting everything go. It'd be like you're lifting the burden and the weight off you and you're just throwing it into the world so you don't have that pressure on your shoulders."

What he said made sense and it had me thinking about if I should just put an album out. Maybe it'd help me feel lighter because I wouldn't be keeping everything in.

"Dang. I sound smart. I should be a therapist,"TyTy popped his collar and I playfully rolled my eyes laughing.

"You might be right about that Ty. I'll think about it,"I nodded my head.

"Well you know you've always got your big brother here to help you out,"we did our handshake and laughed. I got a notification on my phone and I picked it up to check it out.

from Hubby💍❤️: Dinner @ the house? I would say mine but it's kinda full with ppl and the girls are @ urs. Want some privacy for us..❤️

I thought about it and instantly agreed. 'The house' was always referred to as 'the house' because it was the house Jay and I raised our girls in. When we were up and coming Jay and I always dreamed of raising our family in a house like that and when we finally had it we vowed to never sell it or rent it out.