Fidelity

0.3 -"What about Troi Johnson?"

"A blind man could see that Karis, what did you expect him to stop overnight"

"Nathaniel, he can't love me"

"He can and he does. I don't even think he realises how much he does love you"

"It hasn't been a night it's been two years"

"You still love him and he still loves you. Sometimes love doesn't go away, both of you are lucky enough to have that do not abuse it. I've been around people who have and they have lived the rest of their lives in agony"

"No-

"Yes you do, that's why you care so much. I know love when I see love Karis you've got it all up in your eyes. I can smell him on you," He smiled scooping more ice cream out of my cup, "He does. Suck it up buttercup, I think he always will."

Nate and I walked around the city dressed to the nines, arm in arm scooping vodka ice cream out of cheap paper cups, receiving cold stares but too tipsy to care.

"Nate what am I supposed to tell him about his dad?"

Nate tensed and ran a hand through his hair. "Tell him"

He was so handsome it was unnatural his brunette hair never looked dull even after coffee induced all-nighters whoever he ended up with would be lucky. An amazing gentleman with a heart of pure, utter gold.

"Are you insane?" I glared at him. "He would never talk to me again. Let alone if I tell him about Bianchi"

He chuckled, throwing his head back.

I stopped walking, my eyes turning into slits, "Nathaniel this isn't a joke, you know what Francesco is like. Loving me could kill Ashton."

"I warned you not to get involved-

"Liar"

"I told you to fuck him, not to marry him." he laughed, "I told you to loosen up not settle down" he continued, "I told you to wet your-

"Okay...Okay" I held out my hand "You have made your point but you could have told me the truth a little sooner" I smiled "But thank you anyway"

"For what?"

"Being there when I need you."

"Always, but... what does this mean about Troi, you're willing to risk his life for Ashton's?"

"I'm going to stay with Troi and tell Ashton what happened between Tobias and me, that way he is safe and I'm safe. Staying with Troi shows that I'm settling down. I'm out of this business for good. If I don't Francesco will kill Ashton if he finds out he knows about my infidelity. The Bianchi's don't like embarrassment."

"Says who?"

"Tobias"

"Tobias is not a trusted source Skai, you're getting sloppy. Contact Bianchi yourself." He sang, "All of this seems a little irrational Bianchi is not that kind of man."

"We're talking about the biggest crime lord of this era" I deadpanned.

Nate rolled his eyes, "Why tell him?"

"I know it's selfish, so selfish. But I can't lie to him anymore. I couldn't lie to him again."

"Karis-

"I know but I can't be with him and that's okay."

"You promised me, you'd be happy."

"I'll be content"

"With a man, you don't love,"

"He is a good guy."

"Not your guy."