What She Wanted To Say.

30. Believe In Me. (A/N)

I met someone that changed my life in ways I could not imagine.

I didn't realize it until he had realized how much I was too handle, how much he had actually meant to me. And how much he had changed me.

Borderline Personality Disorder, depression, panic disorder and acute anxiety are things I never asked to be diagnosed with.

And I've struggled for years. And I've felt all my fears intensify x 10.

But he made me forget my fears and my doubts. He made me feel normal.

He made me feel like me.

I don't even know what "me," feels like. But that's how being with him felt.

I wanted to thank him, thank him for showing me how the real world works.

I wanted to thank him for making me feel like everyone else.

Actually I want to thank him for making me feel special.

For being the best person I have ever met.

For being my best friend.

For being someone I want to grow and build with.

I haven't used the word, "Depressed," in months. Though I may struggle with my mental issues he never made me feel like less.

Because he was taking care of my soul he was able to get me to see me too. He was taking care of my being. And he made me feel safe.

He still makes me feel all these things.

I am not my bipolar depression.

I am not my anxiety.

I am not my panic disorder.

I lack dopamine and serotonin, chemically imbalanced.

Yet he made me feel... perfect.

And that is something I will always hold on to.

Having a mental illness does not hold you back from anything.

His advice has pushed me to push myself.

To challenge myself in ways that I would have been terrified of doing.

So thank you, for everything.

For being my best friend.

For being the best person.

So understandable and nonjudgmental.

For being patient with me.

For not walking out.

For being a Rose.

I am strong.

All it took was one Rose to believe in me.