rain [2]

four

Julia:

"mommy help me!" deja yells running down the hallways as I cook lunch.

I look down the hall and I see daniel attacking phoenix with kisses. I hear the strong laugh, from my baby boy that slowly disappears every time daniel goes away for the band. but, it always comes right back as soon as he returns. if you couldn't tell by now, both of my kids are a daddy's boy and daddy's girl.

I run up from behind the fridge and I scoop up deja and start tickling her.

"I got you" I yell.

daniel comes running up with phoenix in his arms and is throwing him up in the air and we all are laughing and having a good time.

we were all stopped by the sound of a door bell. I pop my head up and I furrow my eyebrows to daniel

"were you expecting anyone?" I ask and he shakes his head.

I turn deja right side up and plop her back down on her fragile tiny feet. I walk over to the door, peaking through the crack and finally seeing who was at the door.

"jonah?"

I look at his figure, and it seems upset,worn out, almost depressed. the look upon his face held the once happiest man ever, now looking glum and has a face like he's been crying for days on end. I pull open the door for him to come in and he immediately walks in, sitting on the couch

"uncle jonah" deja and phoenix yell.

they run over to him and engulf him into a big hug and he hugs back tightly.

"how are you guys?" he asks with a light smiles on his face, an act for them obviously.

"we're good" deja answers for them.

I look at daniel and his eyes dash over to mine and then the kids

"okay, come on. why don't you guys go play, and we'll get lunch on the table?" daniel says and they nod with the biggest smile on their faces.

I quickly walk over to jonah, occupying the seat next to him and daniel doing the same just on the other side.

"what's wrong?" I say rubbing his arm and he looks at me with this look of sorrow.

it's the same look he had when miles died. he had a look that I will never get out of my head. his eyes were glossy, and his heart was entirely broken. he never stopped crying and was always feeling sorry. that's exactly how he looks now.

"k-kaitlyn, had a miscarriage" he brokenly says.

my heart immediately drops and tears gloss my eyes. I wrap my arms around jonah and he pulls me into a tight hug, sobbing in my shoulder.

"i'm so sorry jonah" I cry rubbing his back.

I pull from the hug minutes later.

"do you know why, she had a miscarriage" I say moving a piece of hair from my now tear soaked cheek.

he sniffles and wipes his eyes with the back of his hand "h-her body just rejected the baby- I don't know" he sighs and hangs his head down low.