rain [2]

thirty three

Julia:
[ it's monday ]

PLAY SONG!

my mind completely stopped.
my heart broke.
I felt myself almost go weak in the knees but I hold myself up.

daniel seavey.
the love of my life.
my best friend.
the father of my children.
cheated on me.

knowing he had babies at home, he still went out and slept with another woman. probably having no care about the wonderful family he had at home waiting for him.

"w-when" my voice cracks.

"monday. (a week ago) the guys and I were at the studio and then I went out to get a drink; I guess I got too drunk and then a couple hours later I woke up naked next to a girl" he looks up at me, with bloodshot eyes.

"who was it?" you crossed your arms over your chest. "what?" daniel asked as he took his hands away from his chest. "who did you sleep with daniel. it's not that hard of a question" you snap.

"a-angi"

your heart drops even more, and you feel all the color in your skin skid away. you backed away from daniel, shaking your head in denial. no, no, no! he couldn't have, he said, he promised.

you see the tears finally start to fog your vision of daniel.

I feel him go to touch my arm, but I flinch away, not wanting him to touch me.

"don't touch me"

you walk towards the door, slipping on your shoes; grabbing your keys and going to walk out the door but immediately back up.

"by the way daniel, your daughter was crying all day for you; you know the one you rejected this morning? she's in deja's room. you know your other kid? the one you also neglected this passed week. and your son, he thinks your being mean to him and don't love him anymore. so if you maybe have told me earlier and not waited a whole entire week, I would've taken this way differently."

i walked out of the house, then hearing something slam inside the house; continuing to walk towards my car and hopping in.

I get inside the car, and immediately speed off from my home.

I pulled over to the side of the road, turning the car off, leaning my forehead on the wheel, and i finally start to cry. this is the hardest I have ever cried in my entire life, I don't think i've ever been this heart broken.

"why" I sobbed.

I look at my wedding ring, sliding it off my finger and looking at the wording on the inside of the band.
'death can't even tear us apart'

I shake my head and drop the ring into the cup holder. I pull out from the side of the road and I began driving towards shawn's house. the only person I could trust right now, the only person that would we able to give me some advice.

I get to shawn's house and I knock on the door, I wait there for a couple seconds before hearing the locks on his door click and turn, him finally being revealed.

"hey jul-" he cuts himself off when he sees my blotchy face.

"what's wrong!" he questioned, pulling me into the house and I immediately wrap myself in his arms, not even out of the doorway. I hug my brother tightly, sobbing into his shirt, knowing that he's there for me.