Ilang taon na rin pala... But the memories are still here. Iyong sakit, iyong sayang naramdaman ko nung kasama siya. Nandito pa rin 'yung mga iba't-ibang klase ng emosyon na nagawa niyang iparamdam sakin. I cannot love another, and even if I have the chance? I won't even try to find someone, I'll stay with him- I'll stick with him.
"How are you? Are you doing great? Miss na miss na kita." I said as I looked at his name on the gravestone and then sat down.
"Gusto na po kitang makita, kaso ayaw po ni mommy eh.." Agatha said while holding her little candle.
My lips curved.
Pinaupo ko naman siya sa binti ko at sinindihan ang kandila niyang hawak-hawak. Pinanood ko naman kung paano niya inilagay ang kandila sa puntod ni Wonwoo.
We've been doing this together for a long time. Agatha knows a lot about him, palagi ko kasi sakanyang kinikwento.
Agatha is my adopted child. It was a long story, but she build me up when I'm about to give up. I really want to follow Wonwoo up there, but this girl? She gave light to my gloomy life, she gave me the reason to stay alive. I love her, I can't afford to lose her too. Kaya kahit saan ako magpunta, lagi siyang nasa tabi ko.
My heart starts to beat erratically inside my chest. I felt someone's hugging me but no one's here... Kaming dalawa lang ni Agatha.
I'm about to go but then, a guy caught my attention.
"She's our child?" That voice... I know that voice... But how?
My eyes begun to water when I saw his face. My man... "Wonwoo?" I asked, not even aware of what's happening.
"Why are you crying? I don't like to see you cry. Please stop." He answered.
"Who is he, mommy?" Agatha asked, eyeing me.
"He's wonwoo, your daddy. He's here for you... Go stand up and hug him." I commanded and follow her as she stood up.
"Why are you here? Paano?" Hindi makapaniwala kong sabi habang nakahawak sa dibdib ko.
"Guess who's doing great in heaven? GOD granted my wish to be with you for the one last time. I missed you. Why won't you give me a hug too, Ivy? Hindi mo ba ako namiss?" He said, then chuckles. Ayan na naman siya, ayan na naman iyong pagsingkit ng mata niya sa tuwing tumatawa. Nasasaktan na naman ako. Kala ko ba tanggap ko na? Pero... bakit ba kasi ang hirap?
"Bakit ka umiiyak mommy? Daddy's here hihi! Hug him, mymy." Agatha said, and I watched how she rested on wonwoo's arms and hugged him very tight.
Hindi ko magawang lumapit... Kahit gusto ko, parang nakakadena ang dalawang paa ko. Hindi ako makaalis, hindi ko magawang gumalaw.
Hindi pa rin ako makapaniwala sa mga nangyayari. Paano naman? Baka naman panaginip lang 'to? I positioned my hand to give myself a slap but he managed to caught my hand.
"This is not a dream? See? I can touch you. You can touch me. Come here." He said, and pulled me for a hug.
Unti-unti kong ipinulupot ang dalawa kong braso sa katawan niya. My tears started to fall. My tears won't stop, He's my first love. I miss this... It feels so right. He pats my head and caress my hair. I miss every little things that he's doing to me.
Tahimik lang kaming tatlo sa loob ng ilang minuto hanggang sa napagpasiyahan namin na pumunta sa katabing park. Wonwoo's enjoying his time with Agatha. I like how they treat each other. Mukha silang mag-ama. Bukod kasi sa parehas silang mestizo at mestiza parehas pang sumisingkit ang mata nila sa tuwing tumatawa.
