you can't fight cancer 🖤

Zach or Jack?

~Two Months Later~

Alexandra's POV:
i sit up excitedly in my bed as i look at the clock 9:00 am. jack was allowed to come visit me today since i was doing a lot better and he was gonna bring me some non organic food better known as MCDONALDS. we were going to cuddle and watch disney movies all day long. my nurse comes into my bedroom and asks if i'm excited to see jack. i just smile and nod she smiles back and hands me my medicine. it's like ever since that day with zach, where i finally got everything off my chest and bitch slapped him, it's been better, my cancer, my life, my heart.

flashback:
after i passed out in zach's arms i was rushed to my room. i had stopped breathing and apparently they needed to use a defibrillator on me. but while all that was happening, i dreamed of my parents but it felt more like real life.

"dad? mom?" they are both sitting by a lake having a picnic. i walk over as they turn around. they stand up quickly and look at each other. "alex. what are you doing here?" my mom says moving one step closer. "where are we?" i ask looking around. "oh sweetie, we are so proud of you and how you've been handling all of this on your own." my dad says putting an arm around my mom. "wait is this- are we- am i-" i started to come to the realization i was in heaven but my dad cut me off. "honey you aren't dead" "i'm not?" "well no, unless you let go." i looked at him and furrowed my eyebrows.
"Alexandra, this is where we get to give you your options: you could be here with us now. or you can go back into that hospital, kick this cancer in the ass and live your life happily. you can see your siblings grow up, have your baby-" i forgot about that. he died before knowing. i begin to cry as i look down at my stomach. "i'm sorry" i say with my face in my hands. "for what sweetheart?" my mom said peeling my hands from my damp face. "for getting pregnant. you guys raised me right and i shouldn't have done it. it was a stupid mistake and now i'm disappointing the both of you." she pulled me into a hug. "hey. don't be so hard on yourself. look at how much you've done without us. we couldn't be any prouder of you. we love you so much alex, always remember that. and remember all the choices you make, matter from this point on. zach or jack: choose when you're ready" i thought about it but then i looked at my parents as they started to fade. "wait! i need you! where are you going?" i scream as i try and grab my mom. "it isn't your time yet alex. but we will always be with you." she wipes the tear from my cheek "'mom i just got you back please don't leave me. i hug her." "i love you" echos all around me. i woke up and realized what i needed to do. the doctor told zach he wasn't allowed to see me and to leave the premises immediately. jack stayed and they told him it would be better if i didn't have visitors for a while. they recently started the at home treatment and i've felt more alive than ever before.

i took a shower and got dressed in leggings and a red sweatshirt jack had bought me when i started the at home treatment. on the front it said "property of jack avery" in white writing and a monitor heart beat in black.

i walked over to my makeup table and straightened my hair. i put on some mascara and eyeliner and went down stairs. my nurses were sitting at the table drinking coffee and probably planning what they were going to do today while i stayed home with jack. "good morning" they were young nurses maybe 26? "good morning miss avery" the one named caitlyn teased pointing to my sweatshirt. i couldn't help but blush. jack was coming over at 12. it was 10:30 sigh. "are you hungry?" the other one named grace asked. "nope! jack is bring over food later" i said basically drooling over the thought of it. "well tomorrow you are back on your organic diet missy" caitlyn said putting away the coffee. "well then maybe he should bring over an entire bakery" i giggled while pulling out my phone.