ONLY YOU - Donghua and Fengjiu [Fanfiction]

Part 3 - Heaven - Royal Gathering

Fengjiu's POV

Days leading up to the Royal Wedding, the Heavenly Emperor has arranged for all the High Gods and deities to join in on the Pre-Wedding festivities. 

These gatherings are usually very lavish to show the importance of the upcoming prenuptial. Although I like to enjoy parties and festivities, I rarely  attend the Heaven Banquets and today Ah Li is here to keep me company. My cute little nephew is so playful and adorable. We were having a lot of fun playing with crickets until the room went silent and everyone bowed and called out "Dijun" - I have never seen this amount of people bowing to Dijun before. Sometimes I forget his status in the Heavens and the Realms.

When I stayed in Taichen Palace we hardly attended these kind of events because Dijun never wanted to attend them so I couldn't believe that he's here tonight. He always found these occasions so troublesome and had no time for them - what's changed? What is he doing here? I wish it was because of me but No... even I can't kid myself. No... he's obviously here out of respect to Ye Hua and the Heavenly Emperor. Still I cannot stop myself from hoping - no matter how remote the chances - I hoped he came because he wanted to see me, because like me he couldn't let go of us.

I sat down again and peaked over at Dijun - he is always so dreamy, no matter where he was, he was always so mesmorising.

So much has changed since the first time we met, when he saved me from the Lion Beast. I can no longer follow you around every minute of everyday like the old days. 

Argh - Wish he would look over... Why hasn't he looked over yet? I found myself looking over at Dijun's direction more and more but trying not to draw attention to myself and making it too obvious but not once has he turned this way. It's like I'm not even worth looking at... He's playing with his tea cup with one hand and resting his head on the other. He's been conversing with Lian Song for a while, his expression distant. He must be bored.  

As soon as Zhi Yue entered the banquet hall, she ran straight over to Dijun and joined the conversation but he's not pleased... he always has his nonchalant expression. Zhi Yue is persistent, always trying to gain his attention but not once did he look at her.

If you didn't know him - you would think that he really is as cold as ice but I have felt his warmth and love (no matter how limited) and it's worth fighting for.

Just as Dijun finally looks over Cang'Yi Shenjun of Mount Zhiyue (my ex-fiance of 70,000 years ago)  stands right infront of me, blocking my view of Donghua. I haven't seen him since I ran out on our Wedding. I never agreed to it, my father tried to make me and back then I was more impulsive and ended up wrecking Cang'Yi's Palace to stop the Wedding. I admit, I acted irrationally but I really couldn't marry him. I never loved him and now my heart belongs to another.

After all these year, I still owe him a very belated apology. I feel guilty as Cang'Yi has always been very kind to me, even now he still looks at me with such admiration yet I feel nothing for him - he will never be Donghua Dijun. I will never be able to accept anyone else into my heart.

Cang'Yi was not alone, he introduced his acquaintance Yan Chiwu from the Demon Clan. I was a bit surprised that the Demon Clan was also invited to tonight's festivities but I guess since negotiations of a peace treaty is underway, out of respect, Heavens extended the invitation. Yan Chiwu had a strange aura surrounding him, he was very distracted and his eyes never left the entrance of the banquet hall. I was curious and asked him what he was looking for and he said "just wait and you will see the most beautiful existence".

At that moment, sweet Music filled the room, everyone took their seats and a few minutes later Jiheng flowed in - dancing her way through the center of the room and onto the stage of the hall. Her movements light and graceful, she is beautiful. I sneaked a peak over at Dijun, like everyone else he is also watching her dance. His eyes on her... she holds his attention. I'm sure I saw the side of his lips twitch... did he just smile???  *Gasp*

My eyes moved to Jiheng again - she really is beautiful, how can one not be tempted... could it be? Was his heart swayed by her?

Yan Chiwu started cursing Dijun under his breath, saying he's not good enough for Jiheng and how her beauty deserves to be admired by someone like him, no one else would truly appreciate her like he could. I was surprised at his boldness and criticism of Dijun.  Normally no deity dares to speak badly of Dijun so I asked him what he meant by it all. Hmm this Yan Chiwu (Yan) character is quite interesting.  

He was abit sheepish and didn't realise anyone was listening. According to Yan, within the last couple of years Jiheng's feelings for Dijin grew stronger and stronger after his mission to the Demon world. Jiheng was poisoned and Dijun had saved her. To repay her debt to him, Jiheng has been serving Dijun and helped with negotiations between the Demon Clan and the Heavens. She hoped to get closer to Dijun. Yan thinks that Dijun has also developed feelings for Jiheng - how can he not with beauty like hers but he thinks Dijun is only playing with Jiheng, he's often very cold towards her and Yan Chiwu cannot bear it. Gritting his wicked teeth, he said that Dijun is standing in the way of his and Jiheng's happiness. Jiheng should be his and not Dijuns - if Jiheng was willing - he would fight Dijun for her honor but he knows she wants Dijun. 

All this is making me feel upset, I dropped my cup and covered my mouth. No wonder Dijun has been so cold towards me. He's not even looked or spoken to me and now he's watching Jiheng dance intensively. How could I be so naive to think that he would hold onto any feelings towards me.

He told me time and time again to let go because we are ill-fated. Maybe he really has let go and moved on. Pain struck my heart - it can't be true can it? 

Keep it together Fengjiu! Don't look over at Dijun again - the dance is coming to an end soon and then I will leave without being noticed... I feel hollow and motionless. If everything Yan Chiwu said was true - then do not let them know that it has affected you so. Do not embarrass Qing Qiu. Be strong and keep it together for a bit longer! Stay calm.  

Unfortunately, Cang'Yi had realised that something was wrong, colour was drained from my face and I felt weak. He insisted on walking me out for some fresh air. I couldn't get my words out so I nodded and walked out with him, too afraid to look back and see something else.

Dijun... please do not hurt me so.