I eventually manage to find Jimin hyung but I see him laughing with Taehyung and his clique like they were bestfriends since forever. I am his bestfriend. Taehyung is also his bestfriend but he can't steal him from me. We made a deal about it. And Jiminie's supposed to be with me this week so I don't know what the hell is happening. I go towards them as they immediately stop laughing to send me daggers with their looks. I shiver slightly and carry on walking while gulping. I just want to talk with my bestfriend.. What can possibly go wrong ?
"Hey Chim hyung... Can we talk privately please ?" I ask politely and softly.
"Hey guys won't you take a look at that ? Guess who's coming ? The son of a bitch from earlier. Taehyung you were right, when I see his ugly fat ass no wonder his parents killed themselves." He says loudly as everyone laughs and agree.
I stay frozen and look at Jimin hyung with big teary eyes full of horror and quavering lips. Not him too..
"Now now listen here little bitch, let me tell you something and open your ears wide cause I ain't repeating shit. My bestfriend, -he says while pointing at Taehyung-, my clique, every student here and especially I don't want to see your crusty ass around here anymore got it ? So please do all of us a favor and fucking disappear from our lives and from this world or I'll make you." He says and I swear he's so scary and threatening I've never seen him like that.
I thought we were friends. I though I could fight against my will to end my own life with his help. I thought that I was worth something for at least one person in this world. Turns out I was so fucking wrong. All of that was fake but I was just too blind to see it. I guess it felt good to be 'happy' for once but it was too good to be true. And as good things never last, here I am now, facing the harsh reality : I am alone. Hah. I think I know what I should do now. Nothing and no one is holding me back. Who would want to prevent a failure from doing the world a huge favor and being useful for once ?
I take a step back and another shakily. I start to hyperventilate as I feel dizzy and my vision gets blurry. I hear all my classmates' laughters, insults and screams echoing in my head, they seem endless. I look frantically around me, everyone is surrounding me and mocking me. I feel suffocated and seems like there's no way out of this evil circle !
I swear to God I feel like I am nothing. It just broke me in endless tiny pieces. I feel like the worst piece of shit the world has ever known. I just want to disappear, this was the last straw. I lower my head while countless tears drop from my eyes and roll on my cheeks to meet the ground. I look at Jimin hyung one more time as I smile weakly as a 'thank you' since he at least gave me little moments of happiness even if it was fake. Then, without thinking, I push my way out of the circle. Despite the fact that I receive several hits, I manage to use the last bit of energy I have to run towards the window and throw myself out of the room with extentended arms. It feels like I'm flying, like I am finally free.
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I want to hit the ground and explode. I want the world to be freed from the biggest burden that has ever existed. There has to be nothing left from a failure like me here. I feel the cold air hitting my skin almost as hard as my classmates. But it doesn't matter anymore it's almost over, I am done with all this suffering. I hope we'll see each other soon Mommy and Daddy.
As I hit the ground, I feel a breathtaking pain during a millisecond then I feel numb and all I can see is black.
Goodbye cruel world.
Narrator is speaking
The entire class room becomes quiet as everybody saw what happened. All the students that is included Jimin, Taehyung and their clique stay paralyzed as they don't realize what the young ravenette just did in front of their eyes. A professor who just happened to enter the room when Jungkook jumped off the window screamed her lungs out, a piercing sound coming out of her mouth. Jimin falls to his knees as he remembers Jungkook's destroyed face before jumping out of the window, he feels like a monster but before he can shed a single tear, he faints. Taehyung is as pale and shaky as ever and so are the other students. No one dares to look out the window. A strong feeling of nausea hits Taehyung as he runs out of the room at the speed of the light. He climbs down the stairs like an animal not giving a fuck that he may fall and roll down the stairs. The last broken stare Jungkook gave them before running to the window won't leave his mind and without even noticing, tears fall from Taehyung's eyes.
