Because Of You - It's funny how someone can change how you view yourself.
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I remember, feeling the uglish.
Guys would look at me and scoff, laughing and mocking me through the hallways.
I remember when I was fat, I was haunted and scared to enter t...
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"Your beautiful in your own way."
"That isn't helping."
T A Y S A
I push the cafe door open and enter the well known, teenager after school hang out.
I pull out a chair from underneath the table and sat in it alone as I glance around the table at everyone else who had a friend or something with them.
A chair beside me was pulled out, Gray coming into view as he grin at me in a pastel blue apron.
"Hey, welcome to Pastel's Cafe. What would you like today?" His swing a kerchief over his shoulder as his grin widens.
"We were here before her," Someone from an other table said.
Gray glance back at the person "Tough look." He shrug at them.
He turn back at me, ignoring the glaring looks the rest of the people were giving him.
"So, your order?"
"Uhm," I swallow the lump in my throat, trying to ignore the glaring, disgustful stares the children were giving him and me.
"Dark coffee." I reply and he nod, getting out of his seat and towards the counter.
My gaze swift to the opening door as my best friend watch through.
I haven't seen her since last term, and she seemed, different.
I watch as a crowd of boys follow behind her, the same group of boys that I was bullied by yesterday and mostly, my whole life.
My ex, Derrick wrap his arm around her, glancing up at me with a widen, mischievous grin.
She blush as she stare at him, unaware of my presence yet.
He whisper something into her ear and her smile drop, her gaze quickly lifting up to me.
Both of them stood there, staring at me while the rest of boys look for a table for five people.
All of our eyes lock together — not one of us blinking but just staring at each other.
My best friend, Angela, turn to Derrick mouthing the words, "Cmon, the boys have find a seat." And he nod, unraveling his arms from around her before giving me a sly look and following behind her.
She didn't even walk over to my table and told me, "Hey, I missed you!" No, she walk along in her new pink skater skirt, white crop top and dyed strawberry blonde hair.
I nod, understanding how things were now.
"Here's your coffee." Gray said handing me the coffee.
I nod, "Thanks."
"Is everything okay?" He ask, "What's wrong —" his gaze drift unto the crowd of boys I was staring at and his voice completely changed.
"Did they do you something wrong?" He was about to take off his apron but I stopped him.
"No — they didn't."
"I — I'm just tired." I take the sip of the coffee, trying to ignore Gray's gaze as he analyze me.
He nod, not staying a word as he move back towards the counter and take off his apron.
He walk back towards me and take a seat next to me.
I take a sip of the coffee, not saying a word as I stare at my best friend while she just narrow her eyes at me before whispering to my ex and laughing at me.
I bite my lip, "I should go." I said rising up from my seat.
"Why?" Gray ask.
My gaze travel back to them then at him, "Because — I just, don't want to be here."
