Because Of You - It's funny how someone can change how you view yourself.
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I remember, feeling the uglish.
Guys would look at me and scoff, laughing and mocking me through the hallways.
I remember when I was fat, I was haunted and scared to enter t...
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"Not everyone who's skinny is happy with their weight and not everyone who's 'big' are happy with their weight but that doesn't give you the right to 'judge' they weight."
T A Y S A
Everyone stare at each other, silence building the awkward room.
"So," The principal said adjust himself in his seat, he clear his throat, gaining both Gray and my attention.
He sit up properly in his chair, "You actually gained a friend." He grin at Gray who glance down at the floor, hiding his smile.
Gray nod, "Yeah."
The principal's gaze landed on me, "I'm a lose friend of Gray's 'family'"
I nod, not questioning the way he said 'family' because it wasn't my business but that didn't mean I wasn't curious about it and by the looks of it, Gray didn't know, either.
Silence's rose back into the room, devouring up in a big pack of awkwardness.
Gray rose from his seat, "Well, if that's all, I have to go to class."
"Gray," The principal call him, Gray glancing back at him from turning the door knob.
"You've detention for the rest of the week and please, don't get into anymore fights."
"I'll try."
The principal's gaze landed on me, "And your little friend. Didn't I tell you to go to class?"
"It was a mistake," Gray interrupted me before I could've talked, "She was just looking out for me."
"And say hey to your mother for me!"
"That's something I won't do." Gray waited for me to exit the small principal's office before slamming the door in his face before he could say another word.
"Taysa," He said as both of us begin walking to class beside each other.
His gaze glance down at me, "I don't know if I should ask you about this but —"
"What video were you in?"
"If your not comfortable of telling me it — I completely understand, though."
I swallow the lump in my throat, my gaze falling down to the floor.
Moving a strand of hair out of my face, I begin finally speak, ignoring all the rambling he did about how if I wasn't comfortable of saying anything — just don't and stuff.
"It started in 2016." I whisper.
"The year I had my first boyfriend."
He went silent after hearing me talk.
"I thought we had something — I thought we were both in love but it was only me swimming alone in the delusional water."
"He wanted to do something together — try something as a couple."
"I agreed although in my head, I didn't wanted to do it but he keep pressuring me into doing it." My voice cracked, the images of how disappointed I was and how much years passed that I have become labeled as, 'The Slut' of the school before it died down a little.
"I dropped my clothes in front of him, unknowing that he had a camera hidden, watching everything we did that day."
"News later went around the school about what happen and the video. I lose some friends and people I thought I trusted but most importantly, I was exposed by the person I thought I trusted the most, the person I thought I was going to love and cherish forever."
"But then, he did it to gain popularity. To walk around the school without people he's probably won't be shamed of."
