Because Of You - It's funny how someone can change how you view yourself.
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I remember, feeling the uglish.
Guys would look at me and scoff, laughing and mocking me through the hallways.
I remember when I was fat, I was haunted and scared to enter t...
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"Speechless to your words; more aware of your actions."
T A Y S A
"Walk around with you everywhere." He nervously chuckle, kicking the floor, "I follow you like a lost puppy because I don't want to lose you."
He send a hand through his hair, "Fuck," He cuss, "I'm probably not even making any sense to you."
"Ya think?" Hi brother reply, rolling his eyes.
"But go on."
Gray was about to continue until he was interrupted by the long bell.
He bite his bottom lip, raking his hands though his hair as he waited for it to finish.
"I guess I'll see you later." He reply, tucking his hands in his pocket.
Silver groan, "I didn't even get my books out of my locker yet. Matter of fact, where the fuck is my locker?"
"If you wasn't so damn malicious you would've found it a long time ago."
"How was I malicious? I was simply watching as my brother try to describe his fuck up feelings and hoping he would mess up and make me laugh."
"Now I see why you and Whritence also have problems."
Silver chuckle, "Oh, I'm not ready for him yet, I heard he has a crush on this girl —"
"Not interested." Gray simply reply before walking into his class.
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"Taysa, Cmon." Derrick move his body closer to me, slamming his hands into the yellow walls above my head.
"Stop playing hard to get, you know you still have feelings for me."
"Derrick —"
"You know you still love me." He carry on.
"Derrick — how can I have feelings for someone who exposed me — someone who I trusted that break me — make my life a living hell and stopped talking to me after getting what they want?"
"I'm sorry." He whisper, "It would never happen again — I promise — it was a mistake."
"And so was our relationship."
We stare into each others' eyes, the only thing moving was the raising and following of our chests.
"It's because of that boy?" He ask after a while.
I shake my head, "No." I respond, "It's me being aware of when someone just want to use me again."
Derrick didn't say anything, knowing he didn't had the chance to.
The wooden door was suddenly push open, tons of children walking in as the chatter in the room build up.
I watch as Derrick glare at me, watching me from the corner of his eyes as he walk over to his seat.
I watch him also, moving over to a seat by the window as I kept quiet yet I was still happy because of how brave I was to tell him I didn't have feelings for him anymore.
The old me would've forgiven him for anything he have done and he was aware of that.
Maybe that's why he thought he could've just run back into my arms and I would've been too naive and blind to his sweet words to ignore what he really wanted by heart.
He didn't care about me or what I wanted us to be before.
He just cared about something else; something he would gain pride from and something that can ruin me, causing people to bully me and laugh at me while calling me some of the most hurtful names.
