Waking up

Chapter 1

*beep beep beep beep*

"Shit." I mumble as I wake up to my alarm.

I stretch as I sit up.

I just sat there for a while wishing that I hadn't woken up and thinking about things.

I turn around and notice my "boyfriend" sleeping there.

I hop up, not even caring if Jace hears me, he's probably drunk anyways.

I go over to my closet and find my clothes.

I bring them into the bathroom and turn on the shower.

I watch the water fall from the shower head for a while, then I hop in.

I wet my hair, and use my body wash, shampoo and condition my hair.

After I do all that, I quickly reach for the razor I have sitting on the counter, and shave.

Then I start getting flashbacks from 4 years ago.

I can't keep living like this!

I find my blades I have hidden and I slid them horizontally across my wrists and thighs.

Why me, why? I don't cry because I don't want to wake up Jace.

After I clean up everything, I dry my body and put on A Skylit Drive shirt, black cat tights, and a black skirt.

I pull out my makeup, hairdryer, and my combs and brushes.

I dry my hair, then brush, and tease my hair.

I put on my mascara first, my foundation, eyeliner, and then my black eyeshadow.

I take one final look at my reflection and look at myself in disgust.

I walk out and slip on my black combat boots, grab my phone, and head down stairs.

I almost grab an apple, but then I remember I'm fat and walk out the door.

I walk past my black ranger rover and head down the street.