The Unholy Triangle of Godt and Bas and Joss

Chapter 12

Godt's POV

I almost hit the car in front of me. I did not realize that I had been going so fast when I entered the main street leading to my apartment.

All kinds of powerful emotions were going on inside me. I was upset, angry and sad and hurt and bleeding all at the same time.

The image of Bas smiling sweetly at Joss as he walked towards his car caused darts of the sharpest kind going through my chest.

I pounded hard on my steering wheel, not caring that I accidentally set off the horn, causing confused and angry stares from the other motorists.

"How could you do this to me, Bas, how could you?" I cried over and over in my mind.

I admit that I am not always at his side to keep him company because of my work schedule so he must feel lonely without me and so I understand that he could be tempted to seek the company of others, but I am worried sick to my stomach that Joss might take advantage of his loneliness and steal him away from me.

If that ever happened, I do not know how I could go on with my life.

I would probably end up a mess and my modeling and acting career would break down in shambles. Worse, I would probably end up in a mental institution.

I almost missed the entrance to my apartment building. I had to reverse a little, causing the motorist behind me to honk at me.

Once inside my apartment, I threw myself on my bed, sobbing into my pillow.

Then something hit my brain.

I shouldn't just be lying on my bed, allowing someone else to take my Bas away from me. I should fight for the person who's mine and who I love very much. I wasn't going to lose Bas to someone else without a fight.

I decided to video call him so that I could see his background. I hoped against hope that his background would be his room and not someone else's.

I held my breath as I waited for him to take my video call.

After thirty rings, yes, I counted, and he did not take my call, I decided to send him a text.

Where are you?

I'm sorry for acting the way I did earlier.

Can we have lunch together?

I can cook lunch for you.

Remember how you liked the chicken in coconut milk that P'Tae and I cooked when all of us original six moons went on vacation at your uncle's cottage? I can cook that again for you. (Author's Note: This is in reference to an episode of a previous fan fiction of mine titled "Life After Two Moons S1")

Once more I sobbed into my pillow when I did not get any response to my texts.

I must have fallen asleep out of mental exhaustion.

I was awakened by my hunger pangs and my phone ringing.

My heart jumped in my chest. The ring tone was the one I assigned to Bas.

I sat up and quickly took his call.

"P'Godt?" his voice sounded faint and sad.

I didn't care that he could hear me sobbing on the phone.

"What is happening to us, Bas?" I asked, "are we over? Are we officially over?"

"Don't say that P'Godt!" he cried, "please don't say that! I love you very, very much!"

"Then why did you not answer my call and my texts?" I asked, doubting the sincerity of his words.

"Why don't you open your door and let me in so that I can answer your questions in person?" he asked plaintively.

Whhaaattt???

I bolted out of bed and ran to open my door, not bothering to wipe the tears from my face.

The moment I opened the door, Bas ran into my arms and hugged me so tight that I could hardly breathe.