Tied by fate ~ Ereri / Riren {Omegaverse}

23. Fate

Fate
/feɪt/
noun
1.
the development of events outside a person's control, regarded as predetermined by a supernatural power
verb
1.
be destined to happen, turn out, or act in a particular way.

Levi;
"H-he could be alive, Levi."

"W-What?"

Eren. Alive? I saw him die. I felt his heart stop. I saw his lifeless body. His once blush toned cheeks, pale white. His infectious smile, gone. And his bright eyes, closed.

I watched them take his body away. They just drove him away in an ambulance, even though they already knew he was dead. We went to his funeral! Saw his body! How could he just 'be alive'?

"That's impossible, Hanji! We saw his fucking body at the funeral!"

"Levi, you know how you are able to travel between realms? Specifically hell,"

"Yeah, what are you getting at, shitty glasses?"

"If you were to die in hell, your body would remain there. If there was some way for you to switch between realms seconds before your death, you would somehow continue living on that realm. To hell, you would appear dead. To that other realm, you would be alive and breathing."

"So what you're trying to say, is that Eren is some magical realm traveller who is able to quickly know when he is going to die and conjure up a plan to travel to another realm? Really fucking smart, shitty glasses."

"You don't understand. It's magic. Eren possesses the most amount of magic in the world, even more than angels and demons combined. He could've easily known he was dying and quickly change realms so he could exist there. Either that, or someone hoaxed the magic so he did this unwillingly. But the issue with escaping death like this, is that you cannot return to the realm you once lived in, unless someone had altered the magic for you."

This theory is so far fetched, I don't know what I'm supposed to be. Just the slight idea that Eren could be alive, feels me with so much joy and love. But if I got my hopes up too soon, I'd only be setting myself up to have my heart crushed and destroyed all over again.

"Even if Eren could do that, why would he travel to another realm to live without me? Fate wrote us together, which means if he died, he wouldn't be able to live again."

"Levi, these dreams you've been having. What if you've done this in the past? But all memories are wiped and you cannot remember the other realm?"

"His memories would be wiped?! If he is alive he won't even remember me! W-what if he's found someone new?"

"Don't avoid the question, Levi."

"They're dreams, Hanji. Nothing more."

"Levi. With all the magic and strange occurrences that have been around lately, we can't simply write these off as 'dreams'."

"I don't want to talk about this any longer, Hanji. Eren's gone, and he's not coming back. Alive or not."

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Eren;
Ever since Levi and I shared a dream, I have been able to distantly watch him through my portals. I couldn't go through, because there's no guarantee that I'll ever return.

On one side, leaving here and getting to be with Levi for the rest of my life, outweighs the cost of never returning. But at the same time, going through that portal to fulfil my own happiness, and leave hundreds of these people - my people - to live the rest of their lives with no hope or happiness, would be completely selfish.

Selfishness is not a trait you want to possess, especially if your continuously surrounded by selfless people. I'm not the selfish type. I prefer to give, rather than receive. It's supposedly a 'gift' of being the angel hound, but I doubt it is. Selflessness isn't just given, you have to develop and earn it over time.

I managed to arrange an hour a day around my busy schedule dedicated to watching Levi on his realm. From what I've seen, he seems so sorrowful, regretful almost. Regretful that he let me die. Let me slip out of his hands when things were finally getting on track.

One thing I noticed, was that he was beginning to have frequent dreams about me. About our past life. But he won't believe they're memories. People will probably just assume he's stubborn. But really he's afraid. Afraid that he'll get crushed by false hope, or afraid to let himself be happy again, only to be torn down by fate.

Seeing Levi hurt like this, it tears me up inside. I just want him to be happy. But we can't. Because we don't get our happy ending.

Happy endings aren't for everyone. Fate is cruel. It picks and chooses who gets the easy life and who gets the hard one. Who gets the happiness and who gets the pain. Who gets love and who gets anguish.

And it just so happened that we got given the hard life, filled with happiness, but anguish too. We get the love, but the pain that comes with it. Fate isn't simple. It never will be.

I miss him. It's fate's way of punishing me for everything I've done wrong. For all the mistakes I've made in life. I have to watch the man I love suffer everyday. I can't reach him, because I'm not strong enough. The dreams he's having, and Hanji, are my only hope right now. If they don't work, nothing will.

He deserves happiness. Of course, I want it to be with me. But that can't always be the way. Sure, we're fated to be together. But that can't always be the way.

Fate changes itself. It adapts to the needs of some, and works against the needs of others.

If Levi and I did have a past life, then fate clearly wanted us to be together. If we died in this past life, then fate wants us to die.

But people can get in the way of fate too. Magic can manipulate fate, make it seem different to what it truly is.

There's a myth. About a book. The original book. It has all the original paths, for every living creature upon this earth written within it. No one knows where - or how - to get this book.

If fate brought Levi and I together, it could easily tear us apart.